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Living a Consensual Non-Consent Lifestyle (CNC)

How to Use This Slave

In my previous post, I mentioned that Master Sir’s younger brother, Master Jerry, was still having issues using me for His pleasures.

So I kindly wrote Him this note and humbly begged Him to read it. If it offended Him, I would accept His punishment. But I do believe that it would (and it did) help Him understand how to use me for his pleasures..

How to operate this slave

Dear Master Jerry

Ever since I turned my life over to my Master (Your brother) and made Him my Owner, my life has been a dream.  This is the life I was meant to live, and I enjoy every minute of it.

So please understand. I know it isn’t as easy as the porn videos or the novels make it out to be. Being a Dom is work. But the rewards can be wonderful.

For the best results, please lead me, control me, and command me. I work best when you tell me what to do, what you want, and what you need.

Yes, I know that modern feminism has pounded into your head that we must be equals in all areas. They are wrong.  I want equality in that I have the right to determine how I want to live just as much as you do.

And this is how I want to live my life. As a slave to a worthy man

Although I am not a supermodel or the skinny little plaything, you would imagine if you could design your own slave. I make up for what I lack in beauty, enthusiasm, and skill.

Besides, I have a body that was meant for you to abuse it and abuse it. You can’t hurt this one!

To help you understand how to use me as your slave, here is kind of a primer on how to use me for your pleasures and comfort.

In short: I am here to please you. It’s my purpose in life to make your life easier and more relaxing. 

If you want something, I am here to get it for you.

How to Operate Bitch Slave for Optimum Service.

  • I need you to lead me. Let me follow. Never have me in front of you; that’s not proper.  Walking side by side is preferable, but you must always take the lead.
  • Tell me. Don’t ask.  Want a fresh, cold beer? Tell me to get you a fresh beer. Want me to stand naked in the corner while you watch porn? Tell me.
  • Say “I want,” not “Can I?” When you want to fuck my ass, tell me when, where, and how. Like “Slave, head down, ass up, NOW”
  • Do not ask me, “Did you like that?” What I think doesn’t matter. How I felt doesn’t matter. If you hurt me but you enjoyed it, that’s what matters.
  • Your orgasms are very important to me. Mine is not.  If you want me to have an orgasm, please tell me, or I may ask or beg. If you think I do not deserve to cum or want me to wait, tell me.  Don’t be afraid to say “no”, I will obey and try to stop it from happening. Your pleasure is my focus.
  • Never be afraid to say No instead of Yes. Don’t be afraid to deny me the requested pleasure.
  • You chose when and where I sleep. What I wear, where and when I can use the bathroom.
  • The bathroom in the garage is the only bathroom I am allowed to use.  Please allow me to continue using it. There is also a pee pad outside by the patio if you so command.
  • If I fail to please you for Any reason, I will accept any punishment you desire.
     
  • It works best if the punishment is as soon after the failure as possible. And that it hurts me.
  • When punishing, please do not give in to my “please stop” or when I say it hurts.  I am there to be punished and to learn from my mistakes.
  • If I say yellow or red, those are safe words. Those really do mean to Stop and rest.  Otherwise, ignore any request to stop. Continue whatever you are doing until you are ready to stop 
  • I love pain if it brings you pleasure.
  • My sexual use is for your pleasure, not mine. There are three holes for you to use when and how you want. I also swallow with no gag reflex. I also clean off your cock after using me, no matter what hole you used.
  • If you are having romantic relations with a female, I can be used to get you drinks, a massage, or a cleanup. 
  • I ask permission to ask that we not engage in anything romantic. That’s not what I am here for; anything romantic has always been off-limits except for my Owner.
  • Please feel free to make your own rules. I am here to serve you.  As long as they do not harm me, injure me, leave permanent scars, or put me/us in jeopardy, I will do as you tell me to do without any hesitation.

These are things I hope can help you to use me for your benefit.

While here, I am Your Slave, Use Me as you want. Please.

Thank You

An Update

Master Sir is recuperating nicely at home. His older brother Kevin had to return to Chicago for work, but he said He would return in a month.

His younger brother Jerry is staying for a few weeks. His company has allowed Him to work remotely. Master Jerry has now moved into the Master bedroom and allows me to sleep with Him. The parents also left town. His sister is still MIA.

Miss Amy is still staying at the house. She is trying to cover for my Owner in His job. When this happened, She was here to talk to the company owner about relocating to Las Vegas. So it was good timing.

Master Jerry is still having issues with commanding me as His slave. He wants to help, and he wants to do things for me. Worst part of all? He asks to use me. Ugh!!

Just fuck me when and how you want to fuck me! Three holes, no waiting. It helps that He has a really nice cock that He knows how to use (sort of) and can reload pretty fast.

On the good side, He loves anal sex almost as much as I do!

The Best News Thus Far?

My brother called to tell me he will be flying in on Friday and plans to stay for at least a week! I get to see my brother, and I get to serve Him!

I love you all!

Thank you all for your continued prayers, warm thoughts, and well wishes!

Love

Bitch Slave

What Happened?

Some of you may be wondering what happened to me. Last month, without any notice, I suddenly signed off on Fetlife, and then my Blog went dark.

Now I pop up back here. So I am sure some of you are probably wondering, “WTF” (maybe not)

So here is what happened

Last month, my Owner suffered a stroke while working from home. His new girlfriend, Miss Amy, was there and heard Him crashing on the coffee table in the living room.

She called 911, and then she called me. My Boss/dom took me to the hospital. His Boss and the Boss’s Wife were already there. Master-Sir was still in the ER. His Boss took my phone and had his wife call the family. I was not able to comprehend all that was happening, but I knew they needed to know.

Once Master left the ER and rested in a room, they allowed me to see Him. But that was all. I lost it several times, and apparently, I passed out once from seeing Him and all the machines He was attached to.

They told me He had lost feeling and sensation in His left side and probably would have speech problems, but they needed to wait until morning to start any serious evaluations.

So they said to go home. They would stay in touch if necessary.

Miss Amy took me home. We both curled up on the couch, and she let me cry into her shoulder for a while. We tried to watch a movie while trying to answer calls from family and friends. Somewhere along the line, I fell asleep.

I woke to the doorbell ringing. I realized it was late, and Miss Amy had gone to sleep in the guest bedroom.

Looking at the doorbell camera, I saw it was my owner’s older brother, Kevin. He had apparently caught the first flight out of Chicago the minute he got the call.

Opening the door, He smiled and grabbed me as I fell into His arms, crying—tears of fear and joy. Seeing Him, a friendly face, was what I needed.

Six months ago, Kevin was still thinking I was the devil incarnate and was the lead man in His family’s hatred toward me. The fat chick who somehow conned their son into marrying me.

That was until he figured out who I am and his brother’s lifestyle. Now, he is my friend, and he is educating himself to become a worthy Dom.

After getting back into the house and closing the door, I knelt on the floor to properly welcome him into the house. He had me look up at Him, holding my chin.”Your Owner told me the last time I was here that you were to obey any command I gave as if it came from Him. Is that still true?”

With tear-filled eyes and a smile, I answered the affirmative.

I know how awful this sounds, but for a slave like me, that was music to my ears. I needed someone strong to keep me going, keep me focused, and run my life. Otherwise, I would go crazy trying to decide for my Master/Husband.

I am a slave; I know that I was born to serve the men I respect and to obey my Owner and anyone He designates to use me.

Master’s brother was almost identical to Him. He was tall, strong, and well-built. Since realizing who I was, his dominant side has come out. And I liked that. Right now, I needed that.

Miss Amy stepped out of the bedroom to see who it was. I made the proper introductions, and then she went back to bed.

He looked at me. “Good, I’ve been dreaming of a blowjob and some sleep, in that order,” He grabbed my hair and had me crawl behind him up to the Master Bedroom.

He may be a new Dom, but he can be polite like his brother. He asked if I objected to him sleeping in the big bed. I did not. He then told me that I was allowed to sleep with Him. I smiled and thanked Him.

I knelt at the side and waited. He got naked and climbed under the covers. I had to tell Him I didn’t enter the bed without permission. He smiled as I saw His cock get hard at those words. Or maybe it was already getting hard. “Bitch, get in bed”. I did as commanded.

He held me tight, grabbing one of my nipples, saying he would handle what needed to be handled. For me to not worry about anything. With that, He pushed my head under the blankets and my mouth onto His hard cock.

I keep thinking how bad this sounds, but I needed that. Even if I was happily giving His brother a blowjob while my Owner lays in a hospital bed with tubes and monitors attached. I am doing what I was meant to do: to serve. I was hopefully making my Owner proud. And I was enjoying the feeling of His cock.

Soon, He held the back of my head as He filled my mouth with my reward. His cum was warm and delicious! I held Him in my mouth until soft. When I popped out from the covers, he was already asleep. I curled up next to Him and fell asleep as well.

My usual routine is to wake Master up with a fresh cup of coffee, then take his cock and swallow His morning stream. Besides the cup of coffee, his brother wanted to be left alone as he got ready.

I fixed breakfast for the two of them. After serving them, I knelt on the floor between them as they ate and talked, ignoring me while hand-feeding me their scraps.

His younger brother and the parents will be in town shortly. Miss Amy said she would move into my bedroom for the next few days, and his brother could have the guest room. The parents (who still hate me) will stay at a hotel close to the hospital. That problem is solved.

The younger brother Jerry was already at the hospital, and the parents were checking into the hotel. He was a wonderful sight to see. He is a little shorter and not as well built—more of an office nerd type of build. Still cute!

Jerry has known I was a slave for a couple of years now but promised to keep it quiet. He kissed me and hugged me. Holding me as we walked into the room my Master was in. I needed that moral support.

The parents came in, said hello to the brothers, gave me a cordial “hello,” got an update on their son, and then left to find something to eat.

Master Kevin and Master Jerry asked me to stop the blog for now. I smiled. Master Jerry looked at me and smiled, “It’s not your decision, is it?” Nope. I’m just the slave!

Not knowing where this was going and whether I would want to open it to the world gave me one less thing to think/worry about.

But the response in the emails and Fetlife was beautiful and unexpected. Your love, comments, and well wishes told me I needed to keep it going—not only for my sanity but also because I had real friends who cared for me and really wanted to know how it was all going.

Master Kevin and Master Jerry decided to reopen the blog and wanted me to refresh it. I want to relive the good times I had on my journey, remember where it all began, and really see just how far I have come.

So, please subscribe and leave me your thoughts and comments if you would like to.

Love,

Crystal

My Super Bowl 2024 Report

It’s been a rainy, wet couple of days here in Las Vegas. It’s been kind of that way for the last couple of weeks.

So after I made Him breakfast and made sure I was clean and inspected, Master-Sir had me bend over to insert a large butt plug in my ass. He also let me wear a coat and shoes as I tried to walk normally to walk to the car. He told me there was no other reason that I was dressed since I was going to be naked for the rest of the day.

We arrived, and The Wife met us at the door. She looked a little stressed, yet had a nice smile as she watched me get naked and put my coat away. She handed me a pair of slippers that I was allowed to wear. .

She told me that it was 9:30 am, the guests would start to arrive at 11 am, and then they would lock the doors at noon sharp. She told me she would prepare the snacks and bowls in the kitchen. “Yes, Mistress.”

I was ordered to get the cleaning supplies and to make sure all the bedrooms upstairs and downstairs were clean and ready. This included fresh sheets on all the beds. There is to be no trash anywhere. Fill the bowls on the tables with condoms and lube packets. Put plenty of anti-bacterial wipes all over the place. etc…

She told me due to the rain, they enclosed the nation with plastic, and that would be the smoking section, so there were plenty of ashtrays. Plus, make sure all the toys are in order.

As Master-Sir kissed me, He told me I was in silent mode. No talking unless I needed to answer a question or respond to something. Boss Wife made sure my collar was on and the butt plugs in place, then she sent me on my way. “Yes, Mistress.”

When I got to the son’s bedroom, he was there, on the bed, naked, smiling at me with a hard-on. He looked at me, “Head Down, ass up”. I quickly did as ordered. I wasn’t there for thirty minutes, and I was already being used. (smiles)

I felt bad because I had already cleaned two rooms, I was dirty, and yet He wanted to fuck me. But that’s all it was. He fucked my pussy hard and fast. He came, then shoved His wet cock down my throat to clean up. Once I had Him soft and cleaned, He told me to get back to work. I responded, “Thank You, Sir.” That was it, No other talk, nothing. He fucked me and dismissed me. I was wet after that.

I had to go to the bathroom to clean up, but I was right back to work cleaning His room as I watched Him get dressed.

I was cleaning one of the bedrooms when The Wife came in with a female guest. “This is our slave; she will unpack your overnight bag for you. Relax, and if you want, you can use her. She is here for whatever you need. I will tell you that she is amazing at licking pussy.”

All she wanted was for me to unpack her beg, start a shower, and make sure some clean towels were out. “I will be sure to use you later,” were her final words to me as I went to do as she ordered.

At this point, I was in slave heaven. I was naked, cleaning a house that was going to be used for a lot of sex; I was not allowed to speak, and I had no orgasm. I was just there to be used!

Downstairs, in the Kitchen, The Wife was in her apron, properly dressed as an executive’s wife should be. opening snack begs, organizing the bowls. She told me where to place the bowls and then cleaned the kitchen as she continued to work.

Finally, The Boss came into the room. He smiled as He saw us working. He kissed His wife, then looked at me. “How’s the slave working out?” She told Him so far, so good. He never spoke to me.

He bent me over the kitchen counter to feel my butt plug. he pulled it out quickly to compare it to one in His hand. Mine was rubber; His was stainless steel. He shoved His into my cunt for lube, then into my ass as quickly. I flinched at the pain but felt Him play with my pussy, as he was laughing at how wet I was.

He handed me my rubber one to lick clean. I hated the taste of the lube, but I smiled obediently and licked it clean before He put it in his pocket.

As the guests started to arrive, I was to greet them at the door. Take their coats and introduce myself as the house slave and that I was there for them to use me as they wanted. Then, walk them into the living room.

It’s a basic level of humiliation when others know they can use you as they want; they know they don’t have to ask. But it’s a more erotic level of verbal humiliation when you are required to tell them that they can use you for whatever they want without asking permission! I was humiliated, and I loved it!

At noon, The Boss locked the door and gathered everyone in the main room. He gave them all a welcome speech, reminding them they all know each other: No Means No. He called me to the center of the room and had me stand, hands behind my back, chest out, feet apart, looking at the floor.

Pointing at me, “This naked slut is our house slave. My good friend and business manager (my Owner) offered her services to us without limits, the man sitting in the corner there watching everything. She will be here to make sure we are all properly fed and watered. She will also keep everything clean, including us.

She is a world-champion cock sucker as well, as I am told; she is excellent at licking pussies clean. She is here to be used for anything you may need. Just command, and she will obey. One other note: she is only allowed to have an orgasm with your permission.”

That last line brought some soft cheers from a few people.

As I started to get everyone drinks, one couple cornered me in the kitchen. They knew who I was, and I knew who they were. They work for the same resort as I do. I see them in monthly update meetings.

I assured them that my lips were sealed and if they asked my Owner, He may allow them to use me outside here. They both smiled. She looked at me and told me they would be using me later.

She was good at her word. After I had served everyone snacks and drinks, she told the hosts that they were taking me upstairs to a bedroom to use me.

She had me undress her. He was already naked on the bed. He was nice-sized both in girth and length. It’s not too big, but it’s certainly above average. She lay at His side and told me to “swallow all of it.” “Yes, Mistress.”

I did as ordered. I got on the bed, between His legs, and took all of Him in my mouth without stopping. “Holy Shit, Batman, she’s good,” was all she said. I loved the compliment! She had me lick and suck His balls before ordering me to stand at the foot of the bed and watch them fuck.

She was very verbally humiliating me. Telling me how someone with my skills would make a great addition to the managers’ get-together after hours. She got into some serious dirty talk. All too soon, I watched Him take a deep breath with a deep growl and lift up as She bent back and howled like a werewolf. I knew He was coming, and I was pretty sure she was as well!.

After a minute or so, She rolled off Him and looked at me. “Well?” My first wet cock. I sucked Him clean and held Him until soft before I smiled at her as she spread her legs. “Thank You, Mistress,” I said as I went to work cleaning Him from her.

After we were done and they were dressed, she took my hand and walked me back downstairs. But we were stopped by another couple. “She is as advertised.” was all she told the new couple as they took my hand and walked me back upstairs.

He was a dud. I could not get Him up. She was okay with that, as she spread her legs and explained that he likes them skinny. “Yes, Mistress,” as I lay between the legs.

After one more walk around the main parts of the house to make sure everyone had fresh drinks and everything was clean and in order, I was sent downstairs to the media room.

The room was filled with couches and recliners along the three walls facing a giant 80-inch flat-screen TV with the “Big Game” on it. The floor was covered with pillows and blankets.

Couples were in various stages of dress or naked. They were cuddling, some were fucking. Others were just watching the action.

One couple on the floor noticed me and called me to them. It was the lady from my resort and another man. She was riding His cock. Once I got close, she got off Him, laid next to Him, and spread her legs, looking at me.

I usually suck the cock clean before doing the lady, But she had that look like she was the queen of the couple, so I smiled, “Yes, Mistress,” and started to pleasure her.

Once I was done with her, she pointed at His hard-on and told me to “finish it.”

Whenever there was a break in the action on the TV, I became the most wanted person in the room as they all started ordering me to come clean them up.

I finally saw Master-Sir in the corner on a couch with a lady I did not know, but I had a feeling she was who I thought she was. I crawled over to kneel at His feet. He was naked and she was sitting on His cock as He introduced me.

Actually, she interrupted Him, and Jiel turned to look down at me. “So we meet at last. The infamous Bitch slave?”

“Yes, Miss Amy, it’s a pleasure finally meeting you.”

She reached down, grabbed me by my hair, and pulled me up to her. Holding me close, she smiled as she kissed me, telling me she was anxious to meet me and see if it was all real, that I really was THAT obedient. Then, she told me to get them some drinks and that she would be ready to use me by the time I returned.

When I returned, I knelt at His feet as she finished riding His cock while looking at me and smiling. In a raspy voice, as she was trying to talk as He was fucking her, She was trying to say something about me.

Finally, Master-Sir pushed her off Him, and he pushed me flat on the floor. On my back, legs spread thinking He was going to fuck me.

No, I was not going to be fucked. He put a knee on both sides of me, crawled up, and put His cock into my mouth. Telling me to open my mouth and not to move. He strokes His cock a couple of times, and I watch the head of His cock start to shoot out my reward into my mouth. I wasn’t even allowed to enjoy Him in my mouth.

After I swallowed, He shoved His cock into my mouth for me to clean. Tasting her juices mixed with His. I smiled, realizing that I had actually missed that feeling, that taste. His conquest’s juices on His cock, in my mouth!

As His cock softened, he smiled at her, grabbed my hair, and pulled me into her wet and warm pussy. “Clean it Bitch” was His command.

When I thought I was done, She held my head between her legs and pushed me tight as she started to moan and hyperventilate. “Jezez, fucking shit, she can lick a pussy!”

When she finally came down from her orgasm and released my head from her vice grip thighs, I just collapsed. I was exhausted.

Master-Sir was sitting on the floor next to me, watching me, watching her. I saw His smile as He grabbed my head and pulled me into His chest. I felt a blanket being pulled over me as I fell asleep.

When I woke up, Master-Sir had His back on the couch, and I was lying on His chest. I had cum leaking out of my pussy. Looking up, Miss Amy was sleeping under a blanket. He hugged me, kissed the top of my head, and told me that I was a good Bitch Slave! “Thank You Master-Sir”

The room was quiet except for the TV audio talking about a historic game. Most of the people had either left the room or were just curled up in each other’s arms, resting quietly.

Master-Sir told me to clean the room, get everyone a last drink, and then check with The Wife to see if she was okay with me going home. “Yes Master-Sir”

She was in their bedroom with The Boss, sleeping. So, I cleaned the kitchen before returning to the basement. There, I found Master-Sir helping Miss Amy get dressed.

She was leaning into Him, not really awake, but moving. He had His arm around her shoulders, smiling as they walked towards the stairs. He put a coat on her and told me to follow them naked. I wasn’t allowed to wear my jacket as we walked out to the car.

At home, He ignored me as He got her into the house and up to His bedroom. Sitting on the edge of the bed, He told me to kneel between his legs as he pulled His cock out, telling me to “drink”.

After swallowing His stream, he told me I made Him proud today. He then told me to go shower and to sleep in my room. Alone. I thanked Him and then wished Him a good night.

After my shower and my night routine, just before I went into my bedroom, shower. I peeked into the Master suite and saw them curled up together, sound asleep.

I was happy, I was hurt, I was humiliated, and I was sore. I realized I licked more pussy than I sucked cocks. And I was happy about it. I was happy that Miss Amy and Master-Sir had a good night. They had great sex, and she enjoyed using me for cleanup. But it was sad that I was mainly used for maid services and cleanup. Only two people had fucked me. One I don’t remember!

And zero orgasms!

In the end, I fell asleep, well sued, and happy to be well sued for my Owner.

,

.

A Prelude to Super Bowl 2024

My Owner has rarely censored my writings here and asked for a change in what I wrote (not that He had to ask; he did so out of kindness). I think I can count maybe three or four posts in all the years that He has told me either not to post or has told me to do a rewrite.

Now, my report on my Super Bowl 2024 post is one of those He wants to approve of first because of its content. The rewrite is now awaiting His approval.

What was the issue?

While I was writing it, He came to see what I was writing about. My topic was about how I spent Super Bowl Sunday. The game was played here in Las Vegas.

On Super Bowl Sunday, I was loaned to His boss to be the house slave for a private party. His boss and wife are swingers, which was a closed event.

About 25 people were there. The group was a closed and friendly group of management and upper management types where discretion is a must. Being that they play often with each other, all are regularly tested.

Besides my usual duties of serving drinks and snacks as well as cleaning up and such, I was, of course, used as a cumbucket (smiles).

In my previous posts, I referred to His boss as “The Boss.” His wife is “The Boss Wife.” Their oldest son is “The Son.”

They live in an exclusive gated community here in Las Vegas. It is a giant house with the full amenities you would expect in an executive house (mansion) with five bedrooms and multiple bathrooms: a media room and an entire dungeon.

These couples would have full access to me. My orders were besides maid service, I was to provide them with all the services they needed or wanted. Nothing was off limits, and Master-Sir allowed me to have as many orgasms as I wanted or was offered!!

The only restriction on orgasms was I had to ask for them.

Master-Sir was there, but in the background, being the perverted voyeur that I love Him to be. They were my main focus.

That day, I can say I was truly well-used for just about everything. Mainly, I was used as a fluffer or for cleanup, which caught Master-Sir’s attention.

As I was typing, He asked me about that.
When we first met, He told me that sometime down the road, I would serve women as he directed. He reminded me that the first several times, I would be sucking His cock clean after He fucked one of His girlfriends.

When He wanted me to clean His lady friend’s pussy of His cum, I didn’t do it willingly, let’s just say that!

He would have to use some pressure on my head as he pulled my hair and pushed my face into her wet pussy, ordering me to start licking her clean.

It wasn’t anything serious; I didn’t want to do it; I resisted as much as I could. I finally gave in. Otherwise, I knew I would be severely punished.

Things changed when He met the Pretty Brunette, and I started to enjoy my time between her beautiful legs. Since then, I haven’t had an issue when a trusted lady of His spreads her legs and points. No words are needed.

For Super Bowl, I was loaned to His boss for a private party, and I was licking and cleaning pussy without any hesitation. I seemed to love being used like that.

What changed?

I had to think about it for a moment. He was right. I no longer need to be pushed or commanded to lick a special lady’s pussy to clean up their juices. I also enjoy just being used by her for relaxation purposes. Or if she just needs to get off quickly and doesn’t want a cock.

I guess it’s like my love of anal sex or maybe even blowjobs. Although blowjobs have always been my favorite treat. I love sucking a nice cock and swallowing His reward. I will do that anytime or anywhere!

But I only enjoy doing that with people I love and trust. Here, I was loaned out to people I never met. Besides my Owner, I looked at three people I knew and twenty-five strangers.

Just for the record, I knew one couple from work! I see them at our monthly update meetings with upper management.

Afterward, Master-Sir told me that several of the ladies praised him on how well He trained me at oral servicing.

How or why was I now an eager pussy cleaner? It was actually an easy answer. It’s how I am trained. Or maybe how I am wired. I am His to serve. Everything I do is for His happiness and His pleasure.

The first couple of times Master-Sir sent me to some stranger’s hotel room for me to give them a blowjob. It wasn’t very pleasant. I did a good job sucking the man’s cock, and I swallowed. But I did it in a hurry because I wasn’t enjoying ti. They loved it, but inside, I was an emotional basket case, and I even cried the first time.

Then I realized what I was doing wrong. I was doing it to please them. I was trying to enjoy it for me since I normally love blowjobs and swallowing their cum. I love the looks they have when they fill my mouth and how they smile and moan as they finish. The best part is when they are expecting me to pull out and end it, but I hold them in my mouth and make sure they are soft and clean before letting them out of my mouth.

I had to change my mindset. These were people who knew my Owner; they had expectations based on their friendship with Him. I was representing Him when I was sucking their cock. If I failed, it would look bad on my Owner.

When I was in their hotel rooms, I thought of my Owner, His cock, His smile, how he would tell me “Good slave” when He knew I served these men as he expected me to.

I trust Him, so I trusted them. I was obedient to them for my Owner’s happiness. I know it sounds a little too easy, but that’s How I think of the world. I was born to serve.

It’s like when Master-Sir sends me to a stranger’s hotel room to give a blowjob. I go there to do something I usually like. But fear doing it to a stranger with no connection to them.

So, these were strangers to me. But they were friends of The Boss, He was friends with my Owner. I needed to hear “good slave” from two important people I trusted. To do that, I tapped into my need to serve, to please, and to make sure others around me are happy and relaxed. I was born to serve. It’s why He owns me.

I was sucking the cocks of these men I never met to be “of service” to The Boss or The Boss Wife. These were her girlfriends I was being told to lick to orgasm or to clean out and get them ready for another round of fucking.

I know many don’t understand the way I think like that. I was there to do what I was meant to do. I was there to “serve”. And it was for me to serve a man I respect. To make Him smile and be impressed with how well I obeyed His commands and represented Him to His guests through my obedient service.

So in the way I was told to lick these pussy’s, It was something I enjoyed. Maybe it’s not the act of pleasuring a woman that turns me off. But I wasn’t there for my pleasure, I was there for Thier Pleasure. I was there to be used, serve, and make my Owner’s Boss proud.

If I was not a slave, and some woman asked me to lick her pussy, I would walk in the other direction as fast as possible. But I am not a free woman; I am an owned slave. And licking a cum filled pussy is what I was told to do; it was what I would do with pride and honor for Him.

This was me serving His needs and His pleasures by serving them. They were just the recipients of my love for Him.

Now, my report on Super Bowl Sunday may make a little more sense in why I was so well used and so happy from being so well used. They hit all of my hot buttons and had me dripping wet from the money I arrived to the moment master-Sir walked me to His car to take me home.

The Rabbit Hole

In every relationship, a little rain must fall. So they say. Right now Las Vegas is in the middle of a week’s worth of rain.

Here at my Owner’s home, we are going down a rabbit hole unlike any other we have encountered. And it is testing our commitment to each other.

The other night, during one of my maintenance spanking’s, Master-Sir had my emotions going off in all directions as He asked me questions about our relationship.

He asked about the new rule where I am not allowed orgasms unless in front of him as well as others not cumming in my holes and I lost it. I got angry, upset and started to explain how it was not humiliations and I felt it certainly wasn’t obedience. To me, it was pure unwanted torture and abuse and not in any way that I liked it or enjoyed it.

In all the years He has owned me, I have been agreeable to anything He has asked me to do. I have never really objected to any of His rules or His commands. I may not like them ,but I obeyed because that’s what a good slave is supposed to do.

Master-Sir has earned my trust in Him and His commands. I know that no matter what He tells me to do, it will not to harm me. I can live with that. Even if I don’t like what He commands me to do, its made up by all the things He has me do that I really enjoy.

In the past, we have always talked about the issues that may have bothered me. But in this case, it was a new rule and with all that has been going on around us, we never had the time to just talk about it.

It’s also the one rule Ineeded time to understand. The men fuckl my pussy, but cum in my mouth. Or they stand in front of me and I watch as their cock twitches and send streams of cum everywhere but my mouth.

The main issue that I have is that I am there to please them. Make them enjoy using this fluffy old slave. And I enjoy feeling them shoot their reward on my holes and hear their sounds of pleasure as they unload in my holes. Sometimes its the grunts that I look forward to and the feeling that I have been of service to them.

If they do as He requests, they need to stop right as they are about to cum, change positions, then resume. That’s a lot of work for them and I think takes away the pleasure they have of using a cum-dump.

I have learned over the last couple of years, on how to temporarily mentally block my need for a orgasm when they are fucking me. I think I am pretty good at not needing one while I am being used. If I needed to, I used to be allowed to finger myself to one after I was alone. I’m ok with that.

We ended the maintenance spanking, He let me fall to the floor and into His arms, wrapped in a blanket. We didn’t talk for a couple of minutes until i was clear headed and explained my thoughts the best that I could.

I now prefer to focus more on their enjoyment, getting them to have more of a experience fucking one of my holes, them hearing me beg for more or telling them how wonderful it feels when they are using me as their cumdump.

Master-Sir did not like that I had previously told Him that withholding my orgasm, made me more submissive. And it does. But in this case, it has become more of me attempting to tolerate it. I have a feeling of being used in a way I didn’t like.

Yes, I am more submissive, I am more focused on fucking or sucking, but I feel an emotional void, an uneasy emptiness when they use my holes but not to the end.

I enjoy watching them end inside me, then get dressed and leave. I actually get a little emotional high when they dump inside me, smile at me and know they can leave without saying another word. No reciprocation, no nothing. Just use me and go about your day.

Under this new rule, it just breaks up the mental connection I/we have as they command me to open my holes to them. The way t is now, I don’t want to be used, I prefer to be used just as a domestic slave, not a sexual slave.

Its not easy to explain because I never had these feelings before. I have never felt like this, where I pray they don’t want to fuck me.

He knew I would suffer if they only used my holes but not cum in me. And it does drive me a little needy, a little crazy. It is painful. I just want a different way to feel the pain that He wants me to feel when I am being used.

Master-Sir wants me to go orgasm free for long periods of time. I get that. But I really want to feel them use me as much as they want without any restrictions. Its what I am here for, to be used and abused for their pleasures.

Is it worth ending or restricting our relationship over? The way I feel about it right now? Honestly? Yes. Its that much of a painful situation. I can’t deal with that void, the emptiness I am feeling. The loss of the mental, emotional connection I get when I am being used as their cumdump. Its too painful.

The rabbit hole was how I can feel the connection of being a faithful cumdump while I am also fulfilling His desire that I feel the pain and the humiliation in the way that we both have always enjoyed it.

I hope what I have said made sense. In my head, the feelings right now are painful, the need to be used and feel that I have pleased them/him overrides just about everything else in my world.

I am sure we will get through this and get back to a normal situation soon., I just needed ot get this off my chest and out there to understand it all.

Thank You,

Bitch Slave

She Saw Me

As I predicted, Master-Sir has taken my submission or at least His desire to use me to a much deeper level this year.

He has already made it clear that I will not have any orgasms unless they are in front of Him or an audience.

Also, the people He lets me use can use any hole as usual. What has changed is that He has asked them not to cum inside me except in my mouth or let it shoot on my body or the floor. Ordering me to lick it up afterward.

Both of these are driving me crazy and making me even more rabidly submissive.

If you follow me, you will remember that back in December, I was giving my Master a blowjob when I tasted a female on His cock. He told me it was Miss Amy—a new lady who works in His company’s Reno office.

He told me that I would probably be meeting her soon. And this week, I met her. It was more like she met me.

I came home from work, I got naked in His office, and He had me stand in front of His desk, in inspection position, Hands behind my head, eyes facing forward, legs shoulder width apart. Speak only when spoken to.

He turned His webcam at me and put her on speaker. I couldn’t see her. He introduced His slut slave to her and told her to ask any questions.

She was very direct with her questions and her remarks. Master-Sir must have explained how to ask and remark. “she is …” or ” Can she?” questions seemed more directed to Him than to me.

There were a few directed at me that I was allowed to answer.
“Slave, why would a woman like you let your man sleep with another woman?” my reply: “Miss Amy, I am His property, not his woman. That means He owns me. He can do as He pleases, while I can only do as He allows. All I require is to be kept safe from harm and to be well used for His pleasures. I am here to serve His pleasures, not mine.”

“Bitch, did you enjoy tasting me on His cock? My reply: Yes, Miss Amy, Thank You. It shocked me at first because it’s been a while since He has had a beautiful woman to have sex with. I am happy He is out there once again.”

Do you enjoy having to share your man with other women? My Reply: Miss Amy, I don’t share anything. He shares me. I am His property, His slave, to be used as a cum dump or a sex toy. I never wanted to be His lover. He deserves a pretty woman to love; I want to make sure He is happy; that’s what I always wanted. For me, I always wanted to find a nice yet firm Dom to use me for His pleasures. I think I did!

Otherwise, it was “Have her show me her ass” (Master-Sir would give me the command). Is she wet? Him: Slave, feel your pussy. “Yes, she is very wet.” Then have me lick my fingers clean while she laughed

After she ran out of questions, Master-Sir returned to His work; they talked back and forth about the project they were working on. All this time, He kept the camera on me.

Occasionally, she would remark about my obedience, my saggy tits, or something like that. Otherwise, I was ignored. And being ignored while being displayed makes my mind go to weird places. I could feel my wetness grow. I knew there was a puddle at my feet. I wanted to hide at the same time as I wanted Him to use me for His cum-dump. But He ignored me.

At one point, He did send me for a fresh drink. She wanted to see how I kneel to serve Him His drink and to know if I will do the same for her when/if she visits. (yes)

I was humiliated as I could not see her, but she could see my naked body. I wondered if anyone else could see me. She had me move around to show her my holes, and she often wanted to make sure I was still wet and close to an orgasm, but I had to stop when I was close. I am learning to count down from 10; as I get closer to 1, they know I am almost ready to cum, and they stop me.

At one point, He came down to me; He never said a word. He removed His pants, fucked my sloppy pussy; He came while reminding me that I was not allowed to cum, then after I sucked His cock clean, He sent me off to start dinner. But first, I had to lick the mess that I made on the floor. At that point, I heard her laugh.

As I left the room, He had me stop to say goodbye to Miss Amy. I heard her laugh again and tell me that I was a good, obedient slave and that she looked forward to using me someday soon. They continued talking after I left the room.

As I fixed dinner, He came into the kitchen and never said another word about the call. Other than that I made Him proud by how I behaved.

As my reward, He had me hump His leg after dinner. He was edging me for over two hours while He watched a movie. My head was so dizzy, wanting to cum, I could not tell you what He was watching. I was edged, I was humiliated, I was used, I was wet. I just wanted to be allowed to cum…

But Not Tonight…

My New Year’s Eve

I finally have some free time to update you on my New Year’s Eve.  This year was a little different than most as we went to a public party filled with vanilla people! 

We had the entire day to ourselves.

After breakfast and after I cleaned everything up, He had me lay on the floor in front of the TV, facing my Master, and telling me that I had to finger myself to orgasm. 

Actually, I was allowed two, s—the kind where I see the stars and the birdies over my head.  Yes, I’m weird.

Finally, after two months of going without! I can say it was wonderful.  All the pent-up emotions and the thrill of having to be displayed like that caused me to have two powerful rolling orgasms.  The kind where I see the stars and the birdies over my head.  Yes, I’m weird.

I screamed so loud I’m pretty sure the neighbors heard. And I made a big wet spot on my towel.

After I caught my breath and my vision returned, I couldn’t kiss Master-Sir’s feet enough, thanking him for that privilege. He patted me on the head, telling me that I was a good Bitch slave. I was probably ready for another one at that point!

 For New Year’s Eve, He took me out to a party at a local resort.

Yes, He took me out in public.  He allowed me to dress up, wear a bra and panties, and look as pretty as possible as I hung on His arm.

He couldn’t let me go out in public without something that reminded me that I was His slave. So right before leaving the house, He inserted a medium-sized butt plug.  It was large enough to walk somewhat normally, yet I always knew it was there.

It felt strange to be the guest and not the slave. Watch other people serve the food, clear the plates, and serve the guests.

Of course, I ensured Master Sir always had a fresh drink, and I got Him anything He wanted or needed. I was His slave.

It felt like a dream to be on His arm, both of us dressed in our finest clothes, as we walked around, talking to people. I was allowed to be like them for a couple of hours, with no restrictions, no formalities.

Occasionally, I would feel His hand on my back as he pushed on the butt plug to remind me, He was in charge.  I was free to talk and to visit, but I knew I was still His slave and needed to be proper in my manners or suffer a punishment.

He even danced with me for a couple of slow songs.  He held me, and he kissed me a lot.  He smelled so nice. It felt so wonderful to have His arms around me, holding me.

My ex-boss and his nephew were also there, and it was nice to catch up with them. I gave the nephew his first blowjob when he turned 16 (cough, cough). I was also the first woman He saw naked.

Both of them were in town for the event with their spouses. My Ex-boss did ask permission to take me into the family bathroom and have a blowjob.  Being on my knees in front of Him brought back some beautiful memories. 

Finally, as it got close to midnight, Master-Sir took me to our suite.  We were off the Strip at another resort.  

He had me sitting on the couch, looking out the window. He pulled the butt plug out and had me lick it clean.  We toasted the old year, and we kissed.

Then I saw Him bring out the evil clamps.  He hadn’t played with them in a long time, and now He wanted to.  Worse yet, these were not just the evil nipple clamps; they had a chain going down to a clamp for my clit. This was going to be a painful New Year’s Eve.

Something I am not proud of and something I really do, but I begged Him to do something else. Those things are painful, especially when he pulls on them as He gets close to coming.  I hate them.

I pleaded with him to use something else for this moment.  A paddle, the larger butt plug, anything where I would be allowed to enjoy some of what I knew was about to happen.

Nope, He smiled as he attached them and then ordered me over the couch, and I felt Him push in me.  There was no foreplay or anything romantic. 

The clit clamp was causing me so much pain, I could not focus on anything else, and I knew I would not be having any orgasm as he was going to enjoy having one.  But I am His slave, and He does as He wants with his slave. 

I was hurting as he just used my pussy for His pleasure.  I could feel His cock get harder each time He pulled on the chains as I was moaning/begging/crying.

I was right; the pain from the clamps never allowed me to enjoy being used.  I tried to watch as the celebration began, but my eyes were filled with tears.

In the middle of the fireworks, I felt Him reach under me and take the clit clamp off.  The sudden flood of blood was worse than the feeling of them on me.  And then I felt Him shoot His load in me and scream, “Happy New Year.”

Between the pain from the clamps, the feel of Him humping me, and then the rush after he took them off just as he was coming and the fireworks were at their peak, I was one mess of emotions… 

Have I ever mentioned how my Owner is a master at fucking with your emotions?  He is.  Master-Sir pulled me around, pulled off the nipple clamps (OUCH), and kissed me deeply as he massaged my boobs.  My mind was all blubber at that point.

I could not tell you if I came or not. I didn’t care.

After I sucked His cock clean, He pulled me by my hair onto the bed (yum). He had me sit on top of him, His soft cock under my wet pussy (I love that) as we toasted to the new year.

He hugged me and kissed me again. Did I mention He was a great kisser when I was allowed to be kissed?

I collapsed from being drained of any energy. Smiling and in love. I fell asleep.

In the morning, we both woke up at the same time.  He rolled me back on top of him and fucked me.  He hasn’t done that in ages. To feel Him in me and letting me ride His cock, was another round of orgasms. 

With my hands behind my back, riding His cock up and down, He bit and pulled on my nipples until I was about to orgasm (again), and He pushed me off. Ordering me to finger myself as he came in my open mouth.

I didn’t know what to do or feel at the time.  I wasn’t happy not having Him use me to the end.  I wanted so badly to feel Him cum inside me; it’s been a long time since he or anyone did that.  But I was happy just being used for His pleasures.  

We showered together, and that’s when he told me, “In 2024, You will not be allowed to orgasm from penetration.”

Saying that like yesterday morning, on the floor at home, with my fingers, I will beg to come as he and others watch. 

Sometimes, he can play the ultimate mind-fuck on me!

But again, I would never trade my life today for my life before I became His slave.  Never. He owns me, and I will do whatever he tells me to do, or I will suffer any way my Owner deems I need to suffer to please Him.

That is what I wanted and what He is giving me.

 2024 is going to be an exciting year! I hope you had a wonderful

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