There are times, for whatever reason, I question the commands of my Owner. I don’t disobey them; I just quietly question His motives.

When I do that, it usually comes back and bites me in my fat ass!

He told me to back off social media, focus more on real life, and pay more attention to my duties as a slave. And, like always, He was so right.

When I was discussing this with Him, He made one particular note. He said I should focus more on my duties as “a” slave. Not His slave. Not the slave of others. But just a general comment that I am “a slave”.

He was right. As His property, I have always focused my attention on Him. Everything I did and how I presented myself was to make Him happy and pleased with my service.

Although I am His property and everything I do is for Him, I never really did anything for the people I served or those using me. Yes, I know. It’s a fine line.

But I served others in a way that made sure they would tell my owner I was good or that I performed better than they expected. Or maybe I did not please them and need to be punished.

When serving them, I focused on how my actions would be reported to my Owner. I was looking at the outcome from the moment I started. I was, in many ways, not “there” I was performing my duties to my owner more than I pleased the person using me.

He told me that way back when I was correct in my thinking. But now? I am way past that point in worrying about Him while serving others. My Owner wanted me to work on being of service to others for the sake of pleasing them in all ways possible. I know, another fine line. But in my head, it made perfect sense.

It changed me profoundly. My mindset has evolved and improved my view of my service and my need to be used by others. With this came a new awakening. I guess I can call it that. When others are using me for sex, I am happier than before and more excited than I was when first entering this lifestyle.

So I am still here, being the slave to a wonderful owner. He will allow me to return to social media slowly and update you when I can. Like before, i do get a lot out of these posts. It does help me think it all through and remember the good and the bad.

Thank you for being my friend and for all the comments and love you all have sent me. I am forever grateful for them and for you.