For those of you who are new to my blog(s), I like to remind you that there was a time when, especially for school children, bullying was just part of your life experiences. Something you just dealt with because it was a “rite of passage”

For a girl who did not fit the picture-perfect size of the other girls, there was plenty of humiliation to endure and it could often be traumatic. My best girlfriend growing up could not handle it and in her first year in college, she decided it was better for all if she just did not exist anymore. Sad, but understandable. I miss her every day.

So when I started to explore my desires to be a slave and to be owned, I knew that the use of humiliation of any kind towards me was Absolutely Off Limits. it was my “RED” in Big Bold capital letters. Any public exhibition? Same thing. Oh Hell NO!

Than I Met My Owner

My Owner changed all that for me. He taught me to trust in Him, to let Him show me the other side of the coin, and in doing so, I found humiliation in certain cases and handled in a certain way can be a HUGE erotic turn on for me as much as it could be for the person who is directing it. When it is used with trust and with love, it can be so wonderful! Certain things are still off-limits. But it’s still a fun road to be led down as a slave with an Owner who has a devious mind with plenty of patience and creative thoughts and ideas on best how to use His property for His exploitation.

So my last post was with an eighteen-year-old, actually, He turns nineteen in a week or so. He and His family are friends of ours. He is a lucky young man who gets to use me for blowjobs, anal fucks, and other sexual things. I will admit that it is humiliating to be punished by someone half my age.

Now, some of the feedback that I received on that post was fun and entertaining. As always, there are a few of you who see it differently. Some people had an issue with the age. He was half my age. A “boy” and I was ruining Him. Really? That’s Debatable.

Since He has discovered me, my submission, we have also enjoyed our long private chats where just about anything has been discussed. He has learned to have more confidence in His manhood. Our relationship has helped build His self-confidence and that has helped Him get more dates with women He thought was not available to Him. That has led to more sexual encounters with girls His age since we started to talk then anytime before. He also now enjoys the search, the hunt for a respectable woman to date, to have as a friend, and to hang out with. Before us, He just wanted to date a female, nothing more. Now He wants to try for bigger and better things.

He now knows how to enjoy being in a romantic relationship, to be patient and considerate of her as they date. He’s not like the other kids he knows who are hungry for that score. To find a girl their age and have sex. You know the story of youthful lust! We have all been there I am sure!

On the flip side, He has me. He gets to be rough with me, gets His rough edges, impatience over some issue, He gets to work that out with me, not her. Using me for those times he wants to be rough or not play the game. he just wants His cock sucked or a pussy to fuck. he has me. No working for it, no pleading, no playing the game. Just command I am here to obey.

Now, as He dates and experiences these new feelings and situations, He asks questions and gets to try it out on a body that can handle some rough trials and errors. He gets to try new things He has seen or learned about. I am His experimental body to work it all out and not worry about hurting feelings or being made a fool of if He fails to make it work.

Last fall, I even took Him shopping for some nice school clothes and after bending me over in the parking lot and fucking my ass, He made some comments about how it was so strange to be turned on shopping for clothes with a woman almost the same age as His mother. (Not what I wanted to hear)

He’s not supposed to find clothes shopping with an old lady, sexy in any shape or form. But knowing I will do as He tells me to do in public was a huge turn-on for Him.

In previous shopping trips with Mother or other women, he could never tell her what He told me while shopping. He can’t talk to them like he did me. Knowing He could fuck me whenever he wanted to or get a blowjob by just telling me to suck it. No comments, no questions. All makes boring errands into exciting, erotic errands!

You want me to carry the bags? I will. want me to open my legs so you can feel my pussy while sitting in the food court? i will do it. Want me to stand there and not move while you shop? Yes, Sir.

Again, for me, I was doing all these things with someone who is just learning to shave! Well, not THAT young, but you get what I’m saying. He knows if there is a problem with my service, He will tell my Owner and I will be punished. This is Pure Public Humiliation for me. When I say that I get really wet when this happens, I really do and I hate myself for it. but it’s my body overriding my mind..

But Wait, There’s More!

I have never been able to have children so I never had that urge or any kind of parent-related issues. But when you are a female who is overweight, has some saggy tits with no bra and no panties and you are to follow and obey a man who is half your age, who can at any time, use you for whatever He has the mind to use you for, let me just say that can create some serious scenes of public humiliation!

I have to obey and let someone half my age tell ME how He will use me for sex? And I have to obey, no questions. Yea, I get wet just thinking about that. It helps that He is now very well dressed compared to when I first met Him. He is certainly getting more confident every time we meet. I have helped Him learn to dress better for His size and that gets to be a turn on. I get to hear about how He had sex with a girl or how they went out on a date and she complimented Him on how He looked and behaved compared to other men His age she has dated. Something that never happened to Him before.

He knows He can talk to me about anything and if turns sexual, no problem, He can just tell me how he wants to use me to “fix it”. And I will happily obey Him.

Slave benefits

To know that I can make an eighteen-year-old man get a rock hard erection is also a huge turn-on for me! The fact that being young also means he can fuck my holes several times in one day and still have the energy to go out on a date and have sex with her. Hot!

He also knows I get frustrated and get wet when he tells me “NO”. When He tells me he wants to fuck me then pulls out as He cums and I can only lick up what I was hoping to swallow. He has even refused a blowjob just to see what would happen. Teasing, torment, and humiliation from a kid just out of high school!

There is a huge sexual humiliation to the fact that I am naked as I open the door, take the pizza as he hands it to me while unbuckling his pants because He knows I am kneeling there to suck His cock. There is no tease, it’s a sure thing that His cock will get sucked by me because i am told that’s what I am to do. No negotiation, no questions. Since day one, my Owner has told me that my holes, especially my mouth was part of the delivery man’s tip!

And if there are any complaints to my Owner, I am properly punished. So I know that I need to please them. Eighteen, thirty, seventy? doesn’t matter. if they are making a delivery, I will be sucking their cock no matter the size, shape or color. For the record, only one or two delivery men have ever declined my offer in all the years.

When most people go on YouTube and see the “I flashed the delivery guy” videos, they leave all those comments about wishing they delivered pizza. Master-Sir and I always laugh. flash? That’s it? Amateurs! Deliver here and you get a blowjob you will tell your friends about. if you are really nice, you get to fuck a tight or sloppy hole.

Being a well-trained slave, I have no right to say “no” to who gets to use me. I am over 50 years old and my body shows years of just being a naked fluffy slave. It’s not a sexy thing, it’s not pretty, especially to a teenage boy becoming a man. It never has been. but my Owner uses that to His advantage. Humiliating me is now a turn on. Having me obey men of all ages is humbling as it is sexually arousing for them and for Him.

Its My Life and I enjoy living the dream He has created for me to live out!

Did I make sense?

Your Thoughts?