I just needed to sit down and let you all know that things here are slowly finding their new normal. And it’s wonderful.

We came back from Chicago, where we had a second celebration of life for my Owner. Many of his old friends and even some distant family people I knew of but never got to meet were there. It was sad but yet a very positive experience.

The only downside was that I needed to permanently distance myself from his immediate family. Thankfully, my Brother was at my side to protect me from their venom. They were seriously offensive and disturbing, even at the celebration of Life of their own son/brother. They feel I am not allowing them to properly “grieve” and apparently feel they are entitled to something from His estate (there wasn’t much there, to begin with!)

Yes, for now and in the near future, I have decided to let my brother step in and be in charge of my leash. I obey Him as I did my Owner. He has full use of me in any way He wants me to serve Him. It wasn’t a decision I made quickly or easily. We clashed, we discussed, and we negotiated a ninety-day master-slave contract; I promise to write about that soon.

I am back to work full-time, and it’s feeling good. I still look for his texts every couple of hours at work, and there are days I want to walk into the house and kneel at his feet, expecting him to be there. I realize that must be a difficult position for my brother. I am trying not to expect Him to be my Owner.

Its funny how certain routines can change your mood. I often feel sad and discouraged as I walk into the office. Giving my Boss His morning coffee and blowjob gives me purpose and focus. It sounds strange, but it is like an energy drink. Maybe it is!

Miss Amy has moved back to Reno, but whenever she is in Vegas, she knows she is welcome here. She still has a house key, and I will serve her if she desires.

My Owner’s Boss still stops in, and we talk. My Brother has agreed to do project work for Him when needed. His son still is my/our pool cleaner and gets a blowjob every time he cleans the pool.

I’m home. I am feeling better each day. I know He will always be in my prayers and in my thoughts. But I also know He woudl not want me to dwell on His passing too long. He always wanted me to live my life to the fullest and to keep on my submissive journey.

Thank you all for being there for me.

More to come