In a few days, it will be two months since I asked my Owner for some mandatory spankings. What some call maintenance spankings.

In that time, there have been three other spankings and there will be more coming. They are painful yet they are cathartic. They also remind me of who I am and what I am. The pain reminds me that I am here for His pleasure, not mine and that pain is just another part of my service to my Owner.

The first one ended with my Owner brutally fucking my ass without care for my needs or level of pain. He was really in a “don’t give a fuck” mood when He started to fuck my poor ass. when I recovered, I was a mess of tears, wetness, and a desire to love Him even more.

In each of the following sessions, I was not chained or tied to the post. I was there on my own. No need for bondage.

However, I was looking forward to being savagely raped afterward. From the first time, it was an unbelievable feeling o be used like that after such an experience of being beaten and made to answer questions.

But Master-Sir reminded me, after I was a puddle of emotions, crying and begging for more, that punishment should be punishment, and not be a time for sexual use. Even if it was as rough and painful as it was, it was still me being used for sex. And He would not be doing that again. For now!

However, I was treated to a nice bath and fell asleep with Him holding me and kissing me. Telling me how much He loves having me as His slave.

The one thing that I enjoy about these sessions is that after each swat of the paddle, I am supposed to answer a personal question about my life as His slave. And He has commented that even when I am at my worst; I am crying, screaming from the pain, and trying to remember the number, I can answer the question without delay.

I guess its because I am who I am. i am His slave and I know my reason to exist is to make His life more comfortable, with no worry or concern fo my happiness. Because i am happy when I am serving His needs and desires.

I am His slave. I belong to Him.

I am an Owned slave.