It’s one thing to talk about the end.  The end of life, the end of a relationship, the end of … whatever.  But it is certainly something else to see it on paper and for it to be all legal.  Master-Sir and I went to a lawyer this week to do just that.   To make sure everyone knows who owns what if anything happens to him, me or both of us. Master-Sir wanted it all on paper and in legal form.

We had most of it done right after we married.  To make sure I knew I was His property but I had access to anything He would be covered for or that I had money in case we divorced or He died, I was still going to be safe and secure.  This was a more in-depth version with more legal and financial details, making this one seriously more legal and officially binding.  If He was incapacitated, if I had a stroke, if He leaves me for His girlfriend or for any other reason.

This includes End of life decisions and in case of Alzheimer’s or similar issues, We covered it all.   I really hope we covered it all because it made me sick, worried, confused, and so very loved.  Too many emotions in one spot to deal with while still being dressed.

In a way, it was fun to watch the lawyer who was “lifestyle” friendly, asking question about me, my role in His life and how to properly word everything as to not give anyone a reason to void it or fight it. I am property, it states that. As well as it states I am His legal wife.

My head is spinning on the “why now?”  Why after almost a decade of being Master/slave, does this happen now?  Now that He has a new girlfriend whom I adore and He seems to truly love. Shouldn’t say “seems to love”  He told Her last night and they didn’t even have sex.   Is that why He did this now?  To make me feel more secure?  To show that I am safe and will not be thrown out in the cold one night??  My mind wanders.

My heart says to just enjoy the security blanket He has now covered me with.  My head says I am thinking too much but I may be right.  Master-Sir reminded me we have talked about this several times over the years and YES, He wants to make sure I know I am safe, secure and protected while telling me that nothing is going to change about our lives.

From looking at everything we signed and I read and we discussed, about the only thing that I am not covered for is if Master-Sir gets eaten by a giant alien while trying to save me from becoming their slave!  But would I still get the deed to His house??

In expressing my worries, Master-Sir reminded me of the several accidents He has had and some health issues that would have buried me in paperwork and legal troubles if anything bad Had happened.  This will prevent that.

But still, looking at it on paper is a scary thing.. Its a nice feeling that it is done and final. But still so scary.