I will say this to my dying day, this slave girl has THE best Master/Owner in the world!

With all the other things going on in my life and around our household, besides trying to not have an orgasm (and failing)while I am being used as a cumdump, Master-Sir has noticed that I have not been doing too well in the sleeping department.

So Thursday, my day off from work, He took me to see my Doctor. He never told me about it. He made the appointment, and just told me to get dressed to go out.

So I jumped into a simple long dress, sandals and a coat (it was cold here). Of course, No panties or bra and I did have my buttplug in.

When I saw the doctor’s office, I started to worry. I wasn’t dressed for this and why are we there? At first, Master-Sir did not tell me, but after we parked and started to walk in, He held my hand and started to tell me how worried He was because I was not sleeping well, and apparently my Boss had told Him I was not performing as expected.

I have a kink-friendly, female doctor who enjoys hearing bout my life and how i am used. She is fascinated by it, yet she refuses our invites to come for a simple dinner and see the real me in action!

After the usual checkup, she got to ask questions about how I am being trayed. Master-Sir left the room, he wanted her and me to talk privately. So I explained it all to her. The No Orgasm rule, the two times I failed at it. My emotional response to it all. She was worried that maybe I was depressed or I might have anxiety issues.

With Master-Sir back in the room, she began to give her opinion. She always smiles because she can’t believe she has this overly kinky lady as her patient. She was explaining how she knows my deep desire to please my owner and to be the best slave I can be.

She felt that maybe the no orgasm rule was putting too much pressure on me to please my owner and the failures that I had caused too much stress on me and my desire to punish myself for not pleasing him is worse than any punishment that he can give me.

I do have the problem of beating myself up when I feel that I have somehow failed Him or displeased Him in my actions or efforts.

Master-Sir agreed with her basement and thanked her for her time. It’s good to know I am healthy, just a little stressed outing trying to be sexually pleasing at the same time trying not to have an orgasm while being used.

Having failed twice, I know that I was really stressed out and I guess maybe it showed too much.

Last night Master-Sir had me sit with Him and we talked. When we have these talks, He wants me on a level with Him, to sit on the furniture. It’s not where I belong, so I prefer to kneel, looking up at my Owner.

He also felt that this is one challenge I may not be able to fulfill and that I was killing myself trying to. To not have an orgasm in order to please Him. I love being used for sex and knowing I am pleasing the man using me. But I get into it too much. Forgetting it’s not about me, it’s about Him. My feeling and emotions are not to be there like they are.

When I was allowed to join Him in bed, we curled up into each other. With Him pulling on my nipples and making me cry in pain, we continued our discussion.

So my wonderful Owner has agreed to go back to our original ways. Where I am not allowed to have an orgasm before He does. and that I am to ask permission any time I feel that I need to have one.

Master-Sir is always about the man being pleasured, not worrying about the slave. So he prefers that I hold out until after I am used. Best to do it on my own without Him using me at the time. As in, you fuck my holes, get me all excited. You fill my hole with your cum.

After I am done cleaning you up and getting you dressed, then I am allowed to ask permission to play with myself until I come while you watch. Master-Sir loves the voyeurism mixed with the humiliation such a rule would create.

As well, If this does not work, or if I abuse the privilege, HE will

If I need to, I will make sure the man is satisfied using me, then ask if I may finish myself off for His viewing pleasure and entertainment.

It’s not foolproof yet and the methods and the timing need to be fine-tuned. But He promised never to give me an extended no-orgasm rule ever again. As long as I understand the situation. The man ALWAYS comes first.

It’s nice that I can talk to my Owner like this and we have these open-hearted discussions. I can still serve Him with 100% of my heart and my soul. But apparently, even slaves have their limits and Master-Sir knows when I am at my limit!