I’m not even sure how to start this.  I guess, looking at it all, I will say that I was ambushed. That is the easiest way to explain it, and now I’m not sure how to handle it.  

 A few months back, my wonderful Brother made plans to come out here for a convention and a vacation.  I love to see and serve my Brother (He knows).  He and my Owner are like two best buddies, and He stays with us.

My older sister (clueless to my submission) has, for whatever reason, been bothering Him recently to take her along on His trips out here. She has never been here and never before wanted to come here (Las Vegas).  So we all agreed (with conditions) she should come for a visit. I would love to have some alone time with my older sis! 

Up until now, she was a staunch feminist and viewed Vegas as a place that uses and abuses women. (??)

In-between all these wonderful talks about His/her trip out here, I was chatting on Fetlife with an ex-feminist who fell down the rabbit hole of Fetlife and discovered she might actually have a submissive side. That realization led her to me and this blog.

She was reading my blog, and we were having some really nice chats about certain posts she liked or hated.  Then she got to the point in my blog where I was talking about my Brother discovering who I really am.  The fact that He now gets to use me as He wants.

That didn’t sit well with her. She started to get mad at that idea. Incest, abuse, blah, blah, blah… Then she used His name in a comment.  The problem was that I never mentioned His real name.  Ever!

She had outed herself.  She, of course, apologized. But I’m not sure it was real or an honest apology..  I’m not sure she wants to come out here for friendly, family reasons or to cause family troubles.  

My Owner thinks she has good intentions but wasn’t sure how to approach me about them.  Maybe this is her way of seeing it all for real.  To learn from a family member or at least see it in real life and get her questions answered by someone she can trust.  

For me,  I feel so violated. Or at least used and certainly not in the way that I like to be used. 

My Owner says He would support me if I asked her not to visit.  As would my Brother.  They would both still come to Las Vegas, but she would stay in a hotel.. 

I don’t mind family knowing about us.  But to be outed/used like that.  It’s just not right. 

Looking back on our discussions, I seem to see the logic in my Owner’s thoughts.  She is sincere, she just didn’t know how to approach the topic. Especially after all the years, she talked about the feminist’s way being “the only way” a woman should live..   

Did she see finally see the light and wants to learn what she has missed all these years? I guess I will find out in 10 days.