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Why Do I Allow Them to Use Me like That?

People often ask that question when they first meet me or encounter my writings. The question is usually phrased this way: “Why Do you allow them (men) to use you like that?”

Best Example

My Master and I are friends with a family that owns a restaurant in our neighborhood that we frequent often. If you are not visiting, we often have delivery. The person who delivers is usually the husband, but in the last couple of years, it has been their oldest son, Billy. Part of their tip has always been a blowjob.

In my writings, I often refer to Him as my “young friend” because when I first met him, he was a shy, chubby fourteen-year-old boy with acne and some serious social issues. He and I bonded over those issues because I faced them growing up.

Today, he is a well-matured, confident twenty-four-year-old college graduate slowly taking over the family business.

In the years since we met, I have helped him build his confidence, understand how to treat a woman properly, and even give him some crucial romance tips. (Don’t treat a woman as you are allowed to treat me.)

Just for the record, I wasn’t the first female to give him a blowjob, but he has always said I gave the best ones. I was his first and only one for anal sex.

Meeting the Fiance

In college, he met the love of his life, Carol. She is beautiful, smart, and (was) a diehard feminist. She was aware of our past and my involvement in his sexual education. She even thanked me for it, saying she had dated other college guys, and they were all hands and no brains. Billy said I taught him otherwise. “Thank you for making him such a gentleman.”

One weekend, they were over for a friendly pool party. She lay out by the pool under a sunshade while Billy and the other men were off in the pool drinking beer and talking man stuff.

As I said, she was a diehard feminist and always thought all men were vultures at a pool party, and if she dared to show them anything, they would be all over her in a minute.

After a while, she finally realized the men around her were not vultures waiting to see her boobs. They were there to have fun, relax, and enjoy the company. So she took off her bikini top before sitting back to read a book.

I was naked as usual. I was refreshing her drink when she asked me to sit and talk.

By this time, she understood fully what I was and what I did for people who visited the house. I am their cumdump and maid. Three holes, no waiting. So far that day, all I had been used for was a couple of blowjobs, and that was in the kitchen, out of her view.

Her first question was a little awkward: “Has Billy, you know, you and him, like, recently?” I assured her Billy would not do anything sexual with me without her knowledge. He is a gentleman and loves her too much. He even turned down my “tip” several times when he delivered the pizzas, so I knew he was in love with her.

She then apologized for what she was about to ask, which told me where this conversation was going: “Why Do You Allow it?” I stopped her right there.

The word allow is challenging to answer. I do what I do because I agreed to it many years ago. I wanted to be his 24/7 no-limit slave. It took me a year to realize I could trust him with my life, and that made me decide to submit completely to his rules. I live for His pleasure, and it’s by my choice. It’s what I live for, and I love every minute of it.

Don’t ask me why, but I am wired differently than she is. As I explained, I have always enjoyed serving the men I love and trust. I love being the slave to a wonderful man who lets me be this way and supports it 100%. Both Master and I are on the same path, seeing how far my submissiveness can go.

Her next question was, “You have choices; you don’t have to…” That’s when I explained my thoughts on feminism. It is about choices. She has the choice to be this properly dressed woman who wants to be equal to her man. I want to be a naked slave who is beneath my man.

She wants to be on equal footing with men. That’s her choice, not mine. I serve men I trust; that is my choice. That’s my version of feminism. Feminism to me is having the right to choose how I live my life on my terms, not his. This was a choice I made.

“The Sex?” Now, we were getting into the good stuff. I am naked for several reasons. One is to show I am the slave. I am the lowest person here, and being naked tells you that. Being naked when others are dressed reminds me of my place. Being naked also means there is nothing to get excited about, nothing to hide or tease anyone with.

She was wearing a cute two-piece bikini, removing the top. Why? To feel sexy and get attention from others. Looking sexy gets a response from the men that is sexual in nature. I’m fluffy with saggy tits, not sexually appealing. But I am sexually appealing because I am there for them to use, no questions asked.

If they are using me, it’s not because my beauty turned them on; it’s because I have three holes available for them to use as they need. No begging, no foreplay, no reciprocation wanted or expected. They want to fuck me, they chose the hole, and they fuck me.

I don’t know about her, but I get excited to know a man is getting hard because he is thinking of using one of my holes. It’s not a romantic fuck, it’s a needed response.

I don’t want to be loved by them. I want them to use me for their pleasure. That’s what turns me on, to feel their cock in one of my holes, hearing them grunt with pleasure as they use me. Then, they give me what I like to call my reward. Their cum.

Please don’t ask me why because I don’t know why. Maybe it’s been a bad week, a bad day. They haven’t had sex in a long while, so they need to get off. So why would they want to masturbate when that slave now serving them a cold drink is there for them to use instead?

When they are using me, I know they are not thinking of how sexy I am or how I look with his cock in my mouth. He is thinking about his girlfriend or wife. Or the woman he wishes were there instead of me. But I am there; they are not, so they do it and move on. Using me makes them feel better. And that makes me feel better. Yes, I know that sounds cold and humiliating. It is, but it gets me wet.

Before you say anything else, know this: These are his friends that he trusts with his life. He’s not giving me over to some random dude off the street. They are clean, and I am clean. They also know that using me is a privilege that he can take away at any time. So I am not in harm’s way, and they respect that I am there for them to use because of my owner’s friendship with them.

This may be a bad example, but I love anal sex, while most women hate it. So if she says “no”, they get frustrated, and it can cause a chill in their relationship, if not their love life. I am here to fix that. No guilt.

Having him fuck my ass may have just helped the wife and, in many ways, improved their love life. He no longer begs; she no longer argues. It’s no longer an issue. He had his fix, so it’s back to making her the center of his life.

I know my Master, and I have a unique love for each other. Yes, it’s expressed in an unusual way, but it works for us. He has a girlfriend who lives out of state; when they are not together, they video chat, and when it turns sexual, he wants a hole to fuck, and I have a wet hole for him to use in her place. My pussy is not as tight and beautiful as hers is, but in a pinch, it works.

“But using you for her has to be so humiliating.” My response was a simple “So?” I turned it back on her. “You love Billy and want to make him happy just as much as he wants to make you happy. You would do almost anything to make him happy.

Let’s say he wants to experience anal sex, and you don’t. He has his heart set on knocking that off his bucket list. Your sex life is perfect, except when he brings this up, and it causes some problems with your love life.

You know I am safe; use protection. He isn’t going to fall in love with me. There’s no romance there. He uses me and, afterward, goes on with life. You are back to normal passion-loving because this is no longer an issue.

Like now. Billy is off in the pool hanging with the men. You are here, alone, relaxing with a good book, but you know it would feel better if you had something between your legs to help you enjoy those sexy moments in the book.

You are the love of Billy’s life. I like to make him happy, to see him happy. And I know making you happy would make him happy. So, if you need something to fix that need, as the house slave, I am here to serve. Please just ask.

I don’t see it as cheating or being unfaithful. I am the slave. No romance, no chance of romance. I’m not here because you are paying me to be here. I am here offering my services because that’s what makes me happy. To see Billy, or my Master, smile.

Do I allow him to do whatever he wants to me? First, its not me to allow him. My Owner makes that call. He knows what, if any, limit she has using my holes. To answer, he has free use of me as much as you would allow him to.

Will I enjoy everything he tells me to do? No, not everything. Do I have a choice not to do it? Yes, but I will be punished for saying no.

They use me because I am here to be used. I like to be used. I like to make them happy and make sure my master is happy.

That helped her understand why I am the slave and why i like ot being used like that.

Master Billy and The Boys

To follow up on my last blog post. I had spent the day helping Mistress Cindy unpack and clean up their new apartment. She told me I was to stay after she left for work. Master Billy would be home, and several of his male study group friends. I was to be their maid.

Mistress Cindy left for work with the only command to focus on the bedroom and the kitchen until He came home, and He would decide what He wanted me to do.

An hour later, Master Billy came home with several pizzas for the night. Sitting in the living room, i was kneeling on the floor between His legs. He told me to continue what I was doing, but to keep an eye on the drinks and snacks.

As I was kneeling there, His hands were massaging my boobs, and He wandered down between my legs and fingered my pussy as He continued talking to me.

There were four men from His group, i would know three of them. He wanted me to know that I was there to clean up after them and serve them drinks and snacks. I was to keep myself open. If they wanted anything sexual, they would be told to use me in the kitchen or the bedroom only.

He unbuckled His pants, and I finished taking them off as I swallowed His cock. I love it when a man relaxes and lets me do the “work”. He just lay back in His chair and moaned. I felt his entire body just relax as I took His cock all the way into my mouth.

I was soon rewarded with His cum. As I held His cock in my mouth until it was soft, He told me Mistress Cindy now does that when she sucks His cock. I smiled as I let him slip out. I got Him dressed again just as the doorbell rang.

Opening the door naked did not startle three of them. They each smiled and hugged me. The last two stood on the doorstep with their mouths open. One of the men told them to just come in. it would be explained.

Once everyone was settled in and given the house rules, they seemed to relax. I made sure they were fed pizza and their favorite drinks before I went to the bedroom to continue cleaning and unboxing.

All five men used me during the night. Master Kevin fucked my ass as did one other friend who also had the energy for a blowjob afterward! I love young Men.

The new guy, I will call Him James. James was a cute college man. He had all the markings of a man with a mission to do as Mommy and Daddy wanted Him to do. College, marry his sweetheart and give them grandchildren while He climbed the corporate ladder.

He came into the bedroom and sat in the chair at the foot of the bed, and watched me clean the floors. My ass was facing Him. I stopped and turned to look at Him. He blushed but never turned away.

I asked Him if anything looked interesting. He told me He always had a thing for BBW’s. Then followed, “I hope I didn’t offend you.” I chuckled as I crawled between His legs, smiling at Him. “I’m a slave. Don’t worry about me. How can I serve you?”

Like others, he had a problem with me just being “used” by a man for His pleasure. So I invited Him to slip His fingers between my legs to confirm i was enjoying myself. “Shit, you’re REALLY wet!” was his response, leaving his finger in my pussy.

I explained that just the idea that I am about to be used for sex got me wet. “It’s shaved!” was his verbal response. But the smile across His face gave him away. Yes, I am shaved. He told me his girlfriend thinks that’s disgusting. It makes her look like a child. She tells him, “Who wants to fuck a child?”

He started, “Can you?” and I stopped him. He told me to lie on the bed and spread my legs. He really wanted to look and feel my bare pussy. I told Him I am here for his sexual use. Not here for romance or anything else; no kissing or hugs. Tell me what you want, and it will happen. I will enjoy it more than you will ever know.

You using me for sex is one of the reasons Billy has me here, and I am here to please you, so it pleases him. Nothing more. He agreed.

When He stood up to move closer, i saw the bulge in his pants and asked him if I could take them off. he smiled again and sat down. His cock came out of his shorts really fast, and he was rock solid at least six inches. But he still wanted to inspect my pussy. To feel it, finger me, and hear me moan as He played with my clit.

I did an unslave thing when I suggested we do sixty-nine so I could at least suck His cock while he played with my pussy. He gave me a firm “NO” as He continued exploring my pussy and getting me close to orgasm. I smiled when I heard that. A command!

He let me roll through a nice orgasm as He watched me moan, breath heavy, and want to roll over as I felt it release. He wanted me to roll over. Again, it started as a question, but I turned it into a command. I handed Him a condom.

James was like a kid in a candy store. He could not believe I wanted him to fuck me “back there” without begging or arguing. He put the head of His cock at my hole and I pushed back. I wanted to feel it enter and get past the ring so we could just fuck.

While He was fucking my ass, He gave me permission to play with my pussy. The more he fucked, the closer I got to an orgasm. Finally, as I was moaning and begging Him to be rough and really fuck me, I kept hearing His laughing as he was still amazed at how tight I was and how it was unbelievable.

When He was about to cum and wanted to make sure I was ok with it, it killed my orgasm, and I just really wanted to slap Him. I was really enjoying the fullness of His cock in my ass, and he just wanted to talk about it!

Later, as it approached eight-thirty, Master Billy came into the bedroom to remind me to finish up. Get ready to go home. I went around to make sure everyone was ok with drinks and snacks.

The living room was in order as much as it could, and i asked if he was going to do the honors of putting my plug back in me. James could not yell loudly enough to say that He wanted to do it. Master Billy and the other guys found his anxious desires funny. He was blushing, but he really wanted to do it.

I was ordered on the floor on mn all fours facing away from them. James gave me a command to spread my ass cheeks. He was getting used ot being firm!

James was told how to put it in my pussy first, get it wet, then slowly work it in my ass. Push a little, pull it out, repeat until I was open enough for it all to go in and past my ring muscle.

I was panting and moaning loudly by the time he had the last push and got it in me. The other guys cheered Him when it was in me; Master Billy slapped my ass, telling me to thank James Properly for putting it in.

What i wanted was for Him to now fuck me. But I just smiled as I turned around to kiss His feet and thank Him for getting me ready to go home.

On the way home, I asked Master to please fuck me or use me somehow sexually and roughly. I need it, and I need it from HIM. Thankfully, when I got home, Master-Sir wanted to fuck me as I told him about my day at their apartment and all the times I was used sexually.

Yes, I am a well-loved (and fucked) slave!

The Wedding Conversation

First, I am not getting married (again). Second, it’s time to give names to my Young Friend and His fiancée. His name is Billy and hers is Cindy

The other night, Master-Sir invited them over for dinner as well as some conversations about their upcoming wedding. Master-Sir had briefed me earlier on His plans, and I promised that I would be the proper slave and happily obey His commands.

I greeted them at the front door and properly knelt to kiss His feet. She has made it clear she is not into “that”. Afterward, I walked them out to the lounge chairs by the pool, where my owner was enjoying an after-work cocktail.

I retreat to the kitchen to get them drinks and check on dinner. patio by the pool. She came in to check if I needed help. I said no, then she told me she would deliver the dinks.

As dinner was cooking, I went out to sit on the ground next to my Owner. He smiled and chuckled at me. Petting my head, He told me he would be in His office until dinner was ready and that Cindy had a question for me.

Once Master was out of the patio area, I looked over at the lovebirds lying on a double-wide lounge chair. Somewhere along the way, they had both changed into swimwear. Master Billy had a hard-on under his trunks as he smiled and looked at his fiancée. I wanted so bad just to kneel there and suck His cock.

She looked at me in her bikini. “You said that he just told you to obey, and that was it?”

I wasn’t sure what all that was, so I looked to Billy for help. “What, my darling girlfriend wants to know, you said that I would just tell you what I want and you would obey.”

“Of course, Sir. You know you have full use of me. What do you want me to do?

He smiled as he looked over to Cindy, who was biting her lower lip, blushing as I had never seen her, as she untied her bikini bottoms. She looked at me. “I don’t have to do you if you do me?”

I climbed over to her side of the lounge chair and smiled. “It would be my pleasure, Mistress. And NO, I am here to serve you.” As I pushed her legs apart.

I am not much of a fan of women’s sexual parts., They are there to serve their men. Not to pleasure me. But she was nice. She was freshly shaved and baby butt smooth! I guess she was planning this tonight.

Master Billyn was telling her to relax, spread her legs, and let me do the work. I felt them holding hands and knew He was watching her as much as she was watching me.

As my tongue started to push its way in, her breathing was getting almost dangerously high! She was moaning as much as He was. Then I felt her body stiffen and her moaning as she grabbed my head. Her first orgasm was quick!

Then I felt her hands grab my hair as she pushed me over to Him. Billy had his trunks off, and His cock was standing tall. She just told Him, “I want to watch you.”

My reward for licking her was to suck His magnificent cock. I was now a happy slave as i swallowed all of Him as he kissed her and thanked her for the “gift.”

Apparently, watching His soon-to-be wife getting her pussy licked to orgasm was too much for him. A few head bobs, and he was shooting his cum into my mouth. I did not release Him until His cock was soft. Then I thanked her, then Him, and went to check on dinner.

The Dinner Conversation

Master-Sir put a butt plug in my ass and had me stand facing the corner in the living room while they ate. I was to hear them talk without being part of the conversation.

Master-Sir started by asking if she enjoyed her little gift. She did and wanted to thank me, but He stopped her. “Please remember, the slave is there for your pleasure, not hers. She did that for you without the need to be thanked herself.”

Cindy gave him a little huff but said that it was starting to make sense. Master-Sir told her if she were to feel my pussy, she would find me VERY wet. And he was right. She declined the offer to feel my pussy.

He wondered about everything they had on their plates. They were planning a Christmas wedding. He congratulated them on that and asked about the timing. Between her schooling, his longer hours at the family restaurant, and their moving in together, where is the time to properly plan the wedding?

Two young people in love just commented about how they will make it work.

That is when Master-Sir gave them the gift no one else could. Me.

As with everyone else, very few people have complete access to His slave; Complete access. And now Cindy was just granted free use. She could come over here any time, and if I am not serving my owner, I would be available to her for anything. Even if she just wanted her pussy licked. “Come on over.” – Of course, He went over the rules. Especially the privacy rules. I could hear her smile from my corner!

When I was called back to the table to clear the dishes and refill the drinks, I congratulated her on the news. I was truly happy to know they would both have access to me.

Master-Sir wasn’t done. He told them that if they needed any help in moving, cleaning the new apartment, or planning and organizing the wedding, I was there for them. As long as He didn’t need me, she was to coordinate schedules with me.

When I leave the house, I now have a butt plug in my ass, and when I get with them, they can remove it or leave it in. Either way, as long as I return with it in. If they need me for any sexual use, no problem. Even if it’s overnight, check with him first.

I was to remain naked in the house unless unsafe or if unknown guests were there. His parents know that I am a slave. I’m not sure if she knows Master Billy’s parents are Master/slave. I didn’t ask.

I was ordered to go to the garage and get a wooden spanking paddle. Master-Sir wanted to make sure Billy was ok using it on me when needed. “ANY time she disobeys or does not please you for ANY reason, you need to use it on her immediately or as soon as possible. Don’t be her friend when she needs you to be her Master.”

Master Billy agreed. Mistress Cindy was unsure. Master-Sir tried to explain (again) it’s how I like it. It’s how we live. It’s not abusive if both parties agree.

To end the conversation, Mistress Cindy actually gave me the command to come to the table, refill the glasses, and then ask if I could join them. After we were all settled, she made it clear that she had a newfound respect for me, for my Master, and for our life. She is starting to understand the other side of feminism and promises to learn how to be a real Mistress to me.

She is over-the-moon happy that I am there to help her plan the wedding, but right now she needs help cleaning and setting up the new apartment. I promised I would be there as soon as possible the next day.

She even did the right thing. She thanked my Owner, not me, for the gift.

Yes, my already busy life just got busier. Time to ask my Owner what he wants me to prioritize!

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