Recently, I was talking with another slave online about being orgasm free and how when I am being fucked, it drives me crazy and makes me more of a submissive than I already am.
She has been orgasm free for two years, and so I wanted to know how it felt. She told me she doesn’t miss them, and every couple of months, her Master tells her to have one. She either can’t finish, or it’s so small that it’s anticlimactic. That’s why she doesn’t count them.
In a previous post, I explained how I fought against having an orgasm while my owner was trying to get me to have one. I won, but I was also punished because I purposely pulled His cock out of my pussy. I did that to let the feeling simmer down, and I quickly put my ass back in place for him to continue fucking me.
I have come to the point where that’s what I do. I don’t pull out anymore because then I get punished, but I physically struggle not to have one. In doing that, he enjoys my internal battle, which seems to cheer him on.
It’s almost like a game I am playing with him. You can look at it as foreplay or a semi-romantic gesture to give Him more enjoyment. And that has become my point. My fighting it and he has resulted in more pleasure for him.
Grabbing my hair so I don’t move. Pinning me to the bed as I struggle to slow His use of my holes down. More, more brutal orgasms for him, more cum for me to have and to swallow.
And giving him more pleasure as he fucks me, isn’t that my goal?
I know that my Boss has commented on that. He gets harder and longer when I struggle. My moaning, he tells me, is deeper and rougher than before. That means I get to be used. I am only interested in hearing Him cum.
Then in between fucks, I am to edge often. Get too close to the point, then stop. In doing this, I see him happier; he desires and uses me more. I get filled with his cum more. I also see that wonderful smile, knowing it’s because I served him.
My friend asked me to take a minute and think, am I missing them, or is it just because I talked about it so much that maybe I should miss them? Orgasms have been part of my talk, but maybe not how I feel.
And it’s scary to realize she has a point. I’m no longer actively desiring them. When I start to feel them build, I fight against them to win. I now enjoy the edging part more, the part where His cock fulfills me and satisfies me, so I don’t need to prove anything to him or me by screaming their name as they use me.
Just for clarification. Me not having an orgasm is what makes sex better for the man. It’s not the man who is having better sex without an orgasm; I need that cum to survive, to know I did my job well.
I hope that makes sense!
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This is my life, and I love it.
Love,
Bitch slave
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