Living a Consensual Non-Consent Lifestyle (CNC)

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Orgasm Free Punishment

Master and I could not pinpoint the exact date of my last orgasm; we know it was within a day or two of today. So, we chose yesterday as being my fourth month of being orgasm free. Not that I am celebrating or anything. He is; he loves to watch me suffer for this pleasure. Last year, I was able to go for six months with an orgasm. Master has made it clear that we made four; six will be a breeze, and soon, I will be orgasm-free forever.

Monday was our first day back from seeing my family. That is a story unto itself! We/I found a way to help me not want an orgasm, but it came with strings—a punishment.

He told me during the day and into the night that He was going to fuck me until I had an orgasm. That way, he had a good reason to use the new wooden paddle he had recently bought. Not that he needed one.

I saw this as a challenge. It had been over a week since He last used me, so I was hoping He would be rough and demanding on me while using my holes for His pleasures. And He was. Do I know my owner or what?

While He was fucking me doggy style, my hands were cuffed in front of me; he was pulling on my ponytail to the point I thought my hair was coming out. Master was also pressing a bullet vibrator on my clit on high and swinging my weighted nipple clamps. I was rolling from pain to pleasure to pain and back again. I was also soaking the sheets.

It was getting hot and rough. He was fucking me in both holes, alternating, so I was always off guard. I was enjoying the challenge of not having one while he was determined that I was going to have one. The more He pushed to make me cum, the more I struggled not to.

As I was reaching my peak, screaming, moaning, and begging for more. I knew it was going to happen, He pulled back, so I pushed forward till His cock fell out. I quickly moved my ass back in place so He could start again, but at least my need to cum had decreased enough.

Yes, He was upset and rougher on me once he got back in rhythm. Pulling my hair and whispering in my ear, I was in for one hell of a punishment. I was smiling as I was also crying in pain and pleasure.

Finally, I felt Him shoot his load in my sopping wet pussy. He pushed me down and fell onto top of me. We breathed heavily as I thanked Him for using me like that.

He rolled me on my back and moved up so His wet cock was in my face. I sucked him clean as He reminded me of my upcoming punishment.

Once He got his breath back and I fetched him a bottle of water, He pulled me by my hair into the garage and hooked me to the punishment pole.

I took my punishment with pride. 75 swats from the heavy paddle. It wasn’t easy, but I did it. I know I will have difficulty walking for the next couple of days and will need to use a pillow to sit on. (smiling)

Yes, I was punished for pulling off His cock. I accept that punishment over being punished for having an orgasm.

I can proudly say that I was NOT being punished for having an orgasm. And that is important.


Month four to forever. Master-Sir is very serious about making sure that I never have another orgasm. And from this little exercise, I know I am going to be in a lot of trouble for other things, but it won’t be for having an orgasm!

Thank you for reading

Bitch Slave

Maintenance Spanking Continue

In a few days, it will be two months since I asked my Owner for some mandatory spankings. What some call maintenance spankings.

In that time, there have been three other spankings and there will be more coming. They are painful yet they are cathartic. They also remind me of who I am and what I am. The pain reminds me that I am here for His pleasure, not mine and that pain is just another part of my service to my Owner.

The first one ended with my Owner brutally fucking my ass without care for my needs or level of pain. He was really in a “don’t give a fuck” mood when He started to fuck my poor ass. when I recovered, I was a mess of tears, wetness, and a desire to love Him even more.

In each of the following sessions, I was not chained or tied to the post. I was there on my own. No need for bondage.

However, I was looking forward to being savagely raped afterward. From the first time, it was an unbelievable feeling o be used like that after such an experience of being beaten and made to answer questions.

But Master-Sir reminded me, after I was a puddle of emotions, crying and begging for more, that punishment should be punishment, and not be a time for sexual use. Even if it was as rough and painful as it was, it was still me being used for sex. And He would not be doing that again. For now!

However, I was treated to a nice bath and fell asleep with Him holding me and kissing me. Telling me how much He loves having me as His slave.

The one thing that I enjoy about these sessions is that after each swat of the paddle, I am supposed to answer a personal question about my life as His slave. And He has commented that even when I am at my worst; I am crying, screaming from the pain, and trying to remember the number, I can answer the question without delay.

I guess its because I am who I am. i am His slave and I know my reason to exist is to make His life more comfortable, with no worry or concern fo my happiness. Because i am happy when I am serving His needs and desires.

I am His slave. I belong to Him.

I am an Owned slave.

I Wanted to Be Punished

Maybe punished is the wrong word. I felt the need to be hurt. To put me back into the headspace. To remind me who I was and what I was. I needed to be beaten. Maybe that’s what they mean by “maintenance spankings”?

Master-Sir wasn’t sure what I was asking for, but He thought about it and agreed. He liked the idea of me having my ass beat red while tied to the post in the garage.

He was in the kitchen, at the bar, reading the news, when he ordered me to get Him a fresh cup of coffee, then to stand in the corner and show Him my ass. That means I am nose to the wall in the corner, legs spread, and both hands pulling my fat butt cheeks apart. Open to anyone who looked. Even if it was just my Owner, I was exposed.

He kept me there while drinking His coffee, reading, and ignoring me. I was starting to feel emotional. I wanted to cry from being left alone and ignored, but I held out.

Finally, I heard, “Bitch, garage.” I moved quickly to the garage and the tall, well-used wood post we use for beatings and other kinky things. It has rings on top, halfway down, and at the bottom.

As he finds the wrist cuffs and the ropes to tie me with, he has yet to say anything or talk to me. Just order me to move as He needs me to tie my hands above my head and to the top ring in the post.

I see the wooden paddle I requested, knowing I can not move. I start to shake. I know I wanted it; I even told Him what paddle I wanted to be used on me. But now that I see it and know what He will do with it. I wanted to change my mind!

“Bitch slave, you will count each paddle, then answer my question. Understood?” I think I started to cry as I told Him that I understood.

“Stick your ass out so I can hit it better. Then tell me who you are.” The first strike was dead center of my ass. It hurt; I jumped and yelled. . “One, Master-Sir. I am Bitch slave”

“What are you” strike two. Thank You, Master Sir. I am your slave.”

After each question, I felt the pain, but also felt the release of the fears and the struggles that I have been having the last two months or so. I have been having with myself.

His questions, like “Who do you belong to?” What can I do to you or with you? (anything he wants) are His limits (none), what are my limits? (everything without His permission)

He went body part by body part to remind me that everything I am or want to be, is for Him to own, control, use, abuse, and care for. Yes, I know, beating a woman till she is crying to stop doesn’t sound like love, but in my world, that’s exactly what it is.

But I don’t see myself as a woman. Women have freedoms; they can make decisions, and they can love who they want when they want. I’m not that, and I don’t want to be that.

I see myself as a piece of loving property. That step above (or below) a slave. Nothing more. I live for His pleasures only. Thats what I want to be for Him.

Each slap of the paddle was counted out loud then I had to answer His question, or i would suffer another strike. This is what I asked for, and it is what he delivered.

After it was all done, I was an emotional mess. But I was happy as He held me in His arms, wrapped me in a blanket, and let me cry my eyes out. He held me. I kept apologizing for failing Him, and He kept telling me I wasn’t failing Him. But I felt I was, and I needed THIS to bring me back into my proper place physically, emotionally, and mentally.

It worked. After i was able to talk normally, He turned me over and fucked me hard and rough. My ass was already on fire, so it was even more painful. He didn’t care as i screamed from the pain. But that’s what I needed. To know I am not in charge, I have no choices or allowed to make any decisions, that I live for him.

The feeling of Him fucking my already burning ass as He pulled on my hair, pulling my head back, was not pleasurable for me, but I know He enjoyed it because he kept telling me this was for HIS pleasure only. And I verbally agreed with him.

After he had cum and I sucked His cock clean, He wrapped us on the floor in a blanket. Enjoy some cold water and a warm blanket. He let me cry as I shook. I need to let all that anger and energy out. He never said a word while I did that. I was on a pain-filled high that made me remember that I was there because of Him and for Him

That night, I was allowed to sleep in His bed, wrapped in His arms, while hearing Him tell me how much He loves having His slave in His bed.

That, Is True Love!

He cares for His slave

How did I ever get this lucky? I have the best Master a slave could ever ask for. I am so serious about that.

My doctor, who knows of our relationship, had me spend a nite in the hospital for some tests. Nothing serious; she just wanted to make sure all my female parts were operating as they should!

Of course, it had to be right after my last punishment so my marks were there. Thankfully my Dr was in the hospital with another patient when the intake nurse saw my ass and alerted another nurse. The red flags went off and we knew what that meant.

Master-Sir and I are used to it. They want to separate us and talk to us. To make sure I am not abused or that He is an abuser. Thankfully I called for my Doctor, and she came back to clear it all up for us. No reports were filed, no hospital files and no police were called. I am not abused. I was just properly punished.

Master-Sir stayed with me as long as He could. Then the following morning, He was right by my side the moment they allowed visitors in. Never leaving me alone for a minute!

I knew He had work to do and appointments to make, I begged Him not to spend all His time there. He moved what he could to another day, and others He did remotely from the hospital, so he was there with me. <smiles>.

That night, after He left, the evening nurses came around to ask about “you know” <smiles>. They were curious about how I got the marks. They wanted the entire story. That was followed by the usual why/what/when/how?? “Thats Kinky” was a common response to my answers.

When my Owner arrived in the morning, most of the staff that was still there from the night before gave Him a smile with a firm “Good Morning, Sir” as He entered. He smiled but was curious about the greetings. He even had an offer for a “punishment” session with one of the nurses!!

All I wanted to do was get home, get naked and serve my Master His breakfast. He told me to follow the Doctors orders and take it easy for the day. He meant it! I hated it, but I loved it. Spending the day doing nothing with my Owner at my side.

He insisted i sit while He got the drinks and ordered the meals from GrubHub. I didn’t even know we had a Grub Hub account!

At least He allowed me to worship His cock while we relaxed on the couch and watched silly movies.

Everything is good. I am still a healthy slave able to serve to my full capacity!

Finally, I wanted to thank my nurses from the night shift. You are all the best of the best!! Happy reading!!

He is Master, I am Slave

Dear readers, friends, and supporters. I really do appreciate all the love and virtual hugs you have sent my way after my last post about a severe punishment I received for not properly putting away some items I left on the counter.

I am fine. I can honestly say it wasn’t easy walking or sitting for the next couple of days, and He kept fucking me doggie style Just so that I felt the pain again while He was getting pleasure. It made me remember that I had failed Him; I failed in my duties.

Yes, it was a simple error. An error that I am sure most Owners would have overlooked. He is not like Most Owners!

I am His slave; He is my Master. We made an agreement years ago. I always wanted to be His Slave. Nothing else. As His seasoned and well-trained slave, There are NO excuses for failing in the smallest of ways.

In my pledge to be His unquestioned slave, He made a promise to me to be That Demanding, loving, and protective Master. And I love that He keeps me to that pledge. He is keeping His pledge to punish me ANY time that I fail His orders. No matter how small.

It is what we agreed to and part of how we live our lives. There is no question the punishment was painful. But it had to be for me to remember to be more aware of what I am doing.

It was also just one small part of our daily life. There are so many more positive, wonderful moments of my service to Him. It can’t all be rainbows and orgasms, now can it??

Please look at it like that. It was a small part of our very loving life as Master and slave.

With life as busy as it is now, I don’t have a lot of time to write. I wish I had more time. So when I do write, i want it to be something worthy pf reading and something real about my life, and our relationship. To be open and honest with you all.

That punishment was something that had not happened in a long time. SO I needed to write about it to help me process what happened and digest how I feel about it.

For some readers, it wasn’t easy to read. It was me showing the dark side of being an Owned slave. Reminding us all that a good Master will always keep a good slave in her place.

Punishments seem to be the place where most Master/slave relationships fail. They want love and obedience, but they fear punishment. Please, no matter what side of the paddle you are on, never fear the punishment. There is a reason for it,

Trust me when I say that it serves a larger purpose in strengthening your relationship and bonding with each other.

I am a Loved Slave, and I love being That Slave!

Friday Night Punishment

Last Friday Night, Master-Sir had me order some sandwiches and snacks from our friend’s pub. Something we haven’t done for a long while. As I called and talked to the wife, I had realized a major error on my part. I nor Master-Sir had really checked in on our friends in a long time. beyond visiting their family-owned business, we haven’t talked with any of them at all.

For newbies here, there is a local pub/restaurant here that is family-owned. The husband or His top employee would always deliver the pizza or whatever we ordered for the parties and I would give him a blow job as well as a cash tip. That eventually led to having His eldest son to being our almost exclusive delivery man.

The son is a nice kid. But like me, has some weight issues and so growing up, He has had some serious self-confidence issues. Not only would I suck His cock when he delivered, but other times, we would sit and just talk about life, sharing the trials and tribulations of growing up being overweight. I would offer my tips, from a female perspective, on gaining your self-confidence (especially when dealing with women), self-encouragement, and ideas that could help Him try to be the bigger man..

This year, with him nearing graduation and moving on to college, they started him on a split class schedule. Meaning most school days he spends part of the time doing His high school senior class stuff, then spends the last part of the day doing College prep work.

He was going to go to the university here for a major in business management. Then He changed that to a two-year degree when He and His advisor realized that growing up in the family business, He was probably going to be smarter than some of his teachers. And some of the classes for the four-year degree would not be of any benefit to Him.

Family Business

The parents are a wonderful couple we have become really good friends with. I mean ‘really’ good friends. Happily married since their college days. But when the wife discovered my submission, our relationship changed. She had a secret fantasy for a long time ot be a slave toher husband. Then she met a real slave and fantasy got real again.

In talking with her, I learned that she feared it was not possible this late in life and with a family?? Then you add the business into it, she cried a few days over that. However, I like to report that after a lot of talking and analyzing their world, we found a way for them to explore their hidden fantasy.

The husband has confided in my Owner several times, telling Him that this new relationship has probably saved the business and has made their marriage a lot stronger. In their new dynamic, He is The Boss and she is the loving, obedient wife. And together, they have been able to survive this COVID mess and still keep the business and their marriage.

So I guess I do need to keep talking more with them and even write more about them now that the old blog is gone!

For an update.

She knew from the beginning that I was giving her husband blowjobs as part of the tip. No problems because they have tried to be swingers, but it didn’t work out. So an occasional blowjob from a fluffy old lady? Go for it, sweetheart! Blowjob for an eighteen-year-old son? She tried to play the dumb mother and never asked about it. But she knew. She was able to let it go, just let Him enjoy the life experience..

In talking to her, I knew she had issues with it, but she also saw how her son started to change after each delivery to our house. She told me He always needed help with getting His self-confidence up with women. For whatever reason she noticed the positive change in Him once He started to deliver pizzas to our place! It works.

My Young Friend Has a Request

For this order, the wife said the son will deliver and she also asked if my Master could help Him with a little school/classroom project He had? Master-Sir agreed. So it was arranged that we would be His last delivery for the night. So no need to hurry after making the delivery. As she put it, “Keep Him as long as you need to get His project done”.

He needed to ask someone in business, just not the family business, some questions about real-world marketing and something about management. I had to smile. My Owner loves to talk shop like that and this just made Him very happy to be asked!

So just before the food arrived, Master-sir called me into His office. On a shelf, off to the side was a small plate and a glass from yesterday,. I should have caught that yesterday when I cleaned or tried to clean. When He pointed it out to me, I knew I was in trouble. Master-Sir from the first night i met Him, He and His friends warned me that He is really anal about His home always being clean and everything in its proper place. The house needs to be clean and organized the night before so we wake up to a new day and move forward. Last night I failed.

I apologized and said that would accept my punishment ( I always do) just as I heard the doorbell ring. ( I was saved!) I smiled knowing I was safe for now!

The eldest son and the one who now almost runs the entire restaurant himself most nights – was at the door. For various reasons, I named Him my “young Friend” I gave Him His first blowjob as an adult when he turned 18 (minus one or two years)and He has enjoyed learning sex from me ever since. Yes, I am very proud of that fact and like to mention it whenever I can!

I also smile thinking if only His lady friends really knew where He was learning it all from!!

Normally He delivers when we have friends over, so I take the food to the kitchen, then take Him to another room and suck His cock or let Him fuck me if He desires. Usually its a blowjob, then He leaves. This was different. I led Him into the dining room as I put the sandwiches in the kitchen.

There were three sandwiches and snacks, so I figured he must have brought one for Himself since they were going to talk. I brought the food and the drinks out as Master-Sir joined Him at the table. Having never joined us for a meal before, he was a little unsure how this worked as I sat on the floor between them. Master-Sir sensed His uneasiness and showed Him how to feed me from His plate. Doing this, I saw his already hard cock jump a little more in his shorts.

Again, He normally gets His blowjob right after the delivery. This time, Master-Sir was hungry, so we ate first, then He will get His tip, then they will talk. I was shocked, Master-Sir was hungry enough that he forgot, or I thought He forgot, that I needed to be punished.

Five minutes after they started to eat, they were talking when Master-Sir remembered my punishment. He smiled, then looked at me then to my young friend. Master-Sir offered to show Him how to properly punish a slave, or maybe a wayward future wife? He smiled at my Owner and agreed to the plan. I peered over to my Young Friend and saw that His cock gave another little rise in His shorts.

The rest of the meal was kind of a blur to me. I was trying to think about how this would go. My punishment, being naked and tied to a post. His watching and maybe even doing it. Shock Him? Disgust Him? Enjoy the show? How would he handle it? After eating, as I cleaned up, they went to the garage so Master-Sir could step Him thru the event. Show Him the post as well as the punishment tools.

when I walked in and knelt on the floor beside the post, i was uneasy, nervous, shaking a little at not knowing what was to happen. As they talked. Master Sir told Him that normally when the slave is punished, there is no sex afterward. it is punishment, not pleasure. So it’s up to Him, does He want the tip from the slave now or afterward? Do you want to use the slave now or after He punishes me?

He decided afterward. Master-Sir smiled as I was told to assume my position on the post. As Master-Sir strapped my hands in place above my head on the post, then had me step away from it so that my Ass was sticking out more. He was talking to my Young friend. Telling Him how, why, and what works best for the best effect, the most lasting pain.

He had some questions about punishment, sex, and such. He admitted to watching some BDSM movies online and actually liked watching the floggings. He just never knew if He could do it. I reminded him that I have plenty of ass to hit so no worry about doing damage!

The Moment

Master-Sir ignored any questions as to why I was being punished, just that I violated a very easy and very important rule. and no matter what, the slave needs to be punished.

Finally, they were ready. Master-Sir stood in front of me, holding the wooden paddle. This one is heavy and thick, it does not bend. it is used ONLY for punishment. As He held it for me to see it, He asked me why I needed to be punished? In aloud voice for both to hear, I explained why I was being punished. “I failed my owner. I am being punished for not keeping the house cleaned as I was trained.”

By this time, I already had tears in my eyes and i was apologizing for failing Him. He stepped behind me and had my young friend stand next to Him. They both were touching my ass as he told Him how to hit the ass and where to stand. How to wait for “the slave to respond as she was trained” meaning I will count the blows and apologize for failing my Owner.

Master-Sir laughed a little when He explained I was crying before the first swat and yet i had wetness down the inside of my leg.

I hear Him hand the paddle over to my young friend who commented on its weight and thickness. “Trust me, it hurts her worse than it hurts you!” Master-Sir told Him.

I could see Master-Sir from the corner of my eye, He was standing to my side and was watching as the virgin paddler lost His punishment cherry! Let me say that He had a mean swing that landed as it was meant to land in the center of my ass. making me jump a little more than usual. I counted “one” then apologized for failing my owner. I waited for the next. If this was “one” and he had 19 more, knowing His abilities, I knew each one was going to be that hard or worse. i was trying to prepare for the worst!

Master-Sir told Him to keep it up, don’t wait too long between swings and to make sure the slave does as she is supposed to (count out loud and apologize). if not, we start back at one!

At fifteen, I asked for a pause, not calling yellow, just a moment to get my breath and my balance. As I feared, He was still going strong! He resumed. Twenty was a tough one and I lost my balance on that one. I wanted to kneel but knew I needed to wait. I thanked Him and He even wiped the tears away.. I saw that He was smiling.

Seeing his cock was just about to rip out of His shorts, I smiled between the tears and asked if he plans to fuck me now? Telling Him that it will hurt for me but I was told men like to feel the heat on my ass after a beating? He looked at my owner in question. My Owner told Him i was right. Fucking a well beat ass is one that causes her pain but the pleasures for Him would be so worth the pain. He smiled “Really?”. Master-Sir smiled at the question, then excused Himself from the room. Reminding my young friend to not forget to unhook me and make sure that I clean everything up afterward.

I was having difficulty standing with my legs wobbling and my ass was still on fire. But to know He was wanting to fuck me like that! i made the effort to stay in place!! He unhooked me to get me into a better position. Doggie Style. Yes!

It was so worth the effort as I watched Him strip out of his clothes and to see that young, hard cock standing taller than i had ever seen it before. His smile was as huge as He went behind me and lined Himself up.

Feeling that cock at the edge of my wet pussy was heaven. I was wanting to feel that inside me no matter the pain. As it slipped in, I moaned. That feeling was short-lived as He pushed Himself into me full weight. Felling His cock inside me was heaven, but feeling the weight of Him and His pelvis hitting my sore, red ass, sent me into the orbit of pain. I know I screamed at the feeling.

I’m so glad His head was behind me because I know i screamed loud each time he pushed Himself into me and his body met my burning ass. When I did scream, I felt His cock inside me twitch a little more. “Thank You, Sir” was all I said. Well, that and a loud “OUCH” As I felt him pull almost out and push back in all the way and with His full weight.

I screamed each time followed frequently by a “Thank You Sir”. Until I felt the pulse and the last shove before He unloaded His cum inside my sloppy and wet pussy.

As he held himself inside me and the burning pain increased, I felt Him unlock the cuffs as we pulled apart and rolled on the floor. His cock was still standing tall and covered in our juices. My mouth watered as I saw my treat. Swallowing his cock as He tried to finger my pussy. Feeling my ass he told me it was cooling down.

Feeling Him in me, tasting the juices. I licked what I could before thanking Him for the punishment as well as the reward. That huge smile on His face told me everything i needed to know. When he stopped smiling, He told me “That Was Amazing”. The beating, the warm ass, and the fucking afterward were all a new high for Him.

He asked what it as like for me. I was honest in saying that He was better then i was expecting and that the fuck afterward was awesome. Knowing it was not supposed to be, I was being punished. But once in a while, you need to change things around for the benefit of the Master (Him). The pain was also very pleasurable because it made His cock so much harder. so I enjoyed the benefit from the pain.

Returning to the house, He and my Owner sat in the office for another two hours talking business. i sat on the floor near my Owner and leaned on His leg often. Not saying anything. Getting them refreshments whenever they needed them. Finally, before leaving, my Young friend needed one more treat. He wanted his usual blowjob.

I was happy to be used one more time for His pleasures. His cock wasn’t as hard as it was last time (smiles) but it was still a wonderful thing to put in my mouth and suck on! He came fast and tasted wonderful.

After He left and I finished my evening chores, my Owner even fucked me in my pussy before we curled up in each others arms and fell asleep!

I was a happy, well-punished and loved slave.

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