Good Evening and welcome back!

This is an update and hopefully a more coherent post from my old blog, from many moons ago. Please let me know what you think.

On occasion, I get that email about my profile on FetLife with them asking if I am “real” and why would anyone want to be a slave or live as I do? But then I get the weird one like I just got. “Where are the cock pics?”

At first I didn’t understand the question. Being female, do I need cock pics on my profile to be real? My favorite FetLife photo finds are really those wonderful pics and stories of beautiful women in positions of ultimate submissions. Sexy slaves in bondage looking the way I wished I could look. Me thinking how my Owner would be so happy to have a skinny thing like that as His full-time slave sucking His cock. Instead of a fluffy slave with big, saggy tits sucking His cock.

But the conversation continued. Don’t I like cock pics? What woman doesn’t like pics of nice hard cocks? That question made me stop.  A cock pic? Yes, I enjoy a nice hard cock. In fact, I want one to suck now as I write this.  That is where it stops.

I am The Slave

I’m a slave. I serve at my Owner’s commands. One of the ways I serve is to suck cocks that Master-Sir wants me to suck as well as my morning devotion to His own cock. I get cocks.

That question made me think of another conversation and another series of posts about having sex as a slave. As a slave, I have sex when, where, and how I am told to or as it is offered to me. I have lots of sex – It’s just not on my schedule or how I want it. I don’t get to decide when or with whom I will be having sex with. My Owner decides that.

That made me realize that I have become so deeply Owned and operated,, that if I had to seduce a man, I really I could! Same with a nice cock. I don’t get to select them so I don’t get turned on by them when I see them online. If there is a cock in front of me, I just assume its there for me to suck on it. to swallow his reward.

Is it a turn-on to me seeing the cock? Yes and no.  I love seeing hard cocks. especially if I know that cock is hard and its hard because of me. The fact that it will soon be on one of my holes and i will be serving the man who owns it.

Blowjobs were my first sexual act and is my favorite thing to do. So I like to see a hard cock.  I want to suck a hard cock, but seeing one on my computer screen does nothing for me.  I just like to suck cocks and as a slave, I only get to see the cocks that I am told to suck..  That’s it.  Its simply another way I serve.

Making men smile as I take their cocks down my throat and swallow their reward makes me very happy and in a strange way, it turns me on.. I enjoy that feeling of a hard cock in my throat and I really love the feel of it releasing its warm juices down my throat.

So seeing a cock on my computer screen doesn’t do anything for me. Maybe it’s me, I don’t get it and maybe that makes me weird. But its how I live my life now and I  would not change it even if I could.

Ok, maybe I need some sleep. Hope it makes sense.